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Audrey Jensen (fknaudrey) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2019-08-22 16:51:00

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[Peter Parker]

O, guru of pop culture and all-around genius. I need you to settle a debate.

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fknaudrey
2019-08-23 01:01 am UTC (link)

Let me guess. Noah? Cause I remember Noah having at least one tirade about that so it would make sense that one of them made it to film.

I mean. I'm gonna be honest, I kind of figured I was from something but I always imagined that Stavo's comic existed as an actual comic in someone else's universe somewhere. Or every other universe? I just assumed that was eventually going to be the story I was going to hear and it would get all meta and I could rationalize it because I'd already started to rationalize it. But I sort of always figured that the Woodsboro murders and all the other Ghostface slayings were just a thing that happened in every world. Like Dahmer and Bundy happened in every world. And I think maybe that's the part that I'm having trouble connecting to?

I guess there are a lot of things - huge things - that happened in your world and other worlds that didn't happen in mine. What's a few spree/serial killers when other people have dealt with aliens and world-destroying robots or... the apocalypse?

But hey. I spent twenty hours playing video games with you, you're as real as anyone I know from back home.

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fromyoutube
2019-08-23 01:34 am UTC (link)

Probably? I remember it was a guy.

I get that. I thought a lot of things were pretty universal over similar worlds, but then I found out they aren't, and it's a lot. Still. ~~I don't know what to say that doesn't make it sound like I'm trying to talk about myself. I'm not. I just want you to know it isn't just you~~ Not to talk about me. I'm not trying to do that. Just kind of let you know I know that mood. It's a big one.

Spree/serial killers are still a big deal, especially if they impact you. They're just a different brand of big deal than aliens. Like the whole thing about how your trauma isn't more or less than someone else's trauma; it's just yours, and all trauma is valid. And I use the word trauma because it seems like most of us are pretty messed up and come from messed up places.

You're real, too. I think you and Rose were some of my first friends here. So thanks for being real.

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fknaudrey
2019-08-23 10:01 pm UTC (link)

No, no it's really fine! You've had to conceptualize this whole thing recently too. You need to vent too. It's perfectly alright. And it is helpful. It's helpful to know that someone else has started working their way through this whole confusing thing and is having trouble with it too.

Not that I... I mean, it's an interesting thing to work your way through, the idea that you don't exist at all in some other world or many other worlds. But it's something I have thought about before. Think of all the worlds you do exist in. All the different timelines that could exist with you in them and things playing out almost entirely the same. It's one of those things that can make you feel incredibly small and insignificant but, at the same time, knowing you're just one mote in a giant universe is exceptionally freeing at the same time. None of the mistakes you've made really matter and forward movement is the only way you have left to go.

Or maybe I'm just fucking rambling and none of that made sense at all but I want it to because something has to make sense right now.

Thank you for being real too.

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fromyoutube
2019-08-24 04:07 pm UTC (link)

I think it's easier to imagine stories being true than to imagine yourself as a story. We all end up stories, I guess, but that's more of a "one day my grandkids will tell stories about me" kind of thing versus "I am literally a conceptualized story in someone else's reality and do not exist outside of certain mediums".

There's also the opposite kind of where things play out drastically different, either from a notably big change or a tiny change that you think has no real effect but does. It doesn't make the end results of it not mattering in the long any different, though. It's both a little depressing and a little freeing to think it may not actually matter all that much. On the one hand, most of us want our lives to have meaning, whatever it is we can find to assign meaning to it. On the other hand, it can take the burden off a little bit over not doing something correctly or making a wrong choice or inaction or whatever else.

Now I'm wondering if there's an alternate reality of this reality.

I ramble all the time. Sometimes it helps sort out my thoughts. Stream of conscience word vomit can be good. It makes sense to me, but maybe that's because we're going through similar things.

If this doesn't spawn a ton of "keep it real" jokes, I'm going to be very disappointed in us.

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fknaudrey
2019-08-27 08:16 pm UTC (link)

I'm kind of wondering if there's an alternate reality to my reality, honestly. You know, every decision that you made, if you'd made the opposite one, a different timeline splits off in full butterfly effect style. One innocuous change just snowballs through the entire timeline. And yet, when you sit down and think about it, so many things stay the same too. Which really does take the weight off certain decisions. There are big changes too. If my dad hadn't been offered the job in Lakewood, we might have ended up maybe staying in New Orleans and everything would be different. I'm sort of curious what that version of me looks like.

I'm glad it makes sense, though. And I'm glad that someone doesn't just think I'm being nihilistic when I say that it's sort of comforting to know that I don't exist in any reality other than my own and that there are ten trillion other realities completely different than the one I've experienced. I'm really okay with that part

Hey. Peter.

Keep it real.

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fromyoutube
2019-08-30 01:17 am UTC (link)

Given how many realities I seem to exist in, as well as those from my world, I wouldn't rule out the possibility of there being at least one other reality similar to your world but with marked differences. But it also seems like, from my incredibly limited experience and perspective, that maybe some changes would always (or almost always) happen. Maybe 99 out of 100 realities you will always end up in Lakewood somehow.

I think knowing you exist in different realities is more stress than it's worth. Maybe it'd be cool to meet another version of yourself, but what if you're a dick in another reality? Then people here expect you to be a dick, and you're not. Like how Klara and Molly except Tony and Steve to be jerks, but they're really not. I mean, okay, Cap dropped an airplane gangway on me, but I know it wasn't a dick move. But it's also nice to know there's variety out there, that it isn't all some slight to drastic variation on the same reality. Yeah, there's enough variables it would result in some drastically different ones, but it'd also be kind of boring, you know?

The realest, Audrey.

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