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Cisco Ramon is an anomaly (onlygoodvibes) wrote in somerealityrpg,
@ 2020-01-02 09:31:00

Entry tags:

inactive: cisco ramon, inactive: george weasley

Who: Cisco and George
What:Cisco tries to find an alternative form of comfort for George
When:Now
Where:The roof
Warnings:Angst probably, sadness idk?

Cisco worried about George being black out drunk. As far as he knew he hadn't since they were together, maybe a little extra dose of togetherness could help him. Granted it wasn't how he wanted to introduce this in the first place, but like hell he was bringing him alcohol. In fact he'd stashed it away so it wouldn't be found. He didn't want to risk him getting into stuff. Cisco had never dealt with someone who had a drinking issue like this, but providing them liquor was not a way to help. It didn't take google for him to know that. God he missed google, if he had it he'd be googling how the hell to help him with said liquor need and maybe wouldn't risk what he was going to try instead. There was very little he wouldn't do for him though. He cared for him. He meant it, maybe even more than care. Seeing the way he was hurting, hurt him too. He wanted to do something to help ease that pain a little.

He rushed up the stairs after George had given him the okay for hugs and didn't waste a second in doing so when he spotted him. "Popular place." He commented as he announced his arrival quietly and embraced him. This was where he'd ended up when sad. Seemed like a good place to cope with things. He was clearly empty handed, no booze to offer, only support.

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halfthere
2020-01-02 11:36 pm UTC (link)

This place was supposed to be different. Sure, there were still issues in this place, but he had Fred again. That meant it was different. He could do better and not shove his family aside in his anger and pain. Except, what a shite job he must be doing if he didn't know his own mother was missing. George could have blamed it on the arrival in a time where there was no strange network to check on people, but that was a cheat. No, he hadn't clung to his mother because it had been strange to see her so young. Instead, he had dotted on the nieces and nephews he knew in this place and annoyed his brothers.

Now he was just a shite son again, one that didn't notice that his mum was gone.

He toyed with his bracelet as he stared out at the city in front of him as he let his thoughts stew. He didn't glance away from the city as Cisco announced his presence, but he also didn't yank away from the hug. "It is clearer up here," he said softly. "I just needed some time up here, away, yeah?"

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onlygoodvibes
2020-01-02 11:49 pm UTC (link)

"It is." He agreed with that, arms went around him from behind as he just held him. "I understand. It's less claustrophobic." He wasn't offended that George went up there, not at all. "I'm glad you let me come up." He hadn't thought it through as well with his break down. He'd merely hit the panic button and his brain scrambled. It'd really fucked with his ability to think straight. "This place is hard a lot of the time, but just know you aren't alone." He'd been through a fair few close friends, Caitlin counted as family, leaving now. He knew how gut wrenching it could be. He wasn't going to sugar coat it, but he would try to ease some of the pain if he could.

He rested his chin on his shoulder and looked up at the sky too for a minute, then down at the bracelet he wore. "What's that from?" A simple question, in the hopes to distract his mind. Maybe get him to think of other things.

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halfthere
2020-01-03 12:23 am UTC (link)

George pursed his lips together as he made a faint sound of acknowledgment. His fingers stilled on his bracelet as he made a faint face. "Crafted it," he finally said as he unclasped the bracelet and held it up. "Throw it against the ground and the charm explodes in a cloud of colored smoke." The charm looked like a simple piece of quartz, but clearly it was more than that.

With deft fingers, he secured the bracelet to Cisco's wrist. Once it was in place he gave a faint nod before glancing up at the sky with a frown.

"I learned me mum left from my niece. It is stupid, but I'm angry at myself for not realizing she was gone. What type of son am I if I don't know when my own mother leaves?" That was a bit he hadn't meant to voice, but there was no taking it back. "Back home I basically avoided her, didn't like the way it looked it hurt to see me. The mirror reflection of what she lost... maybe it was in my head. I don't know."

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onlygoodvibes
2020-01-03 12:51 am UTC (link)

"Did you? It's wonderful." George had so many talents. As he removed it and tied it onto Cisco, the Latino gave him a faint smile and him a gentle squeeze of thanks. "That's so cool." He admired it briefly. "You sure you want to give me this? Must have taken you a while to come up with." He wasn't sure how wizard crafting worked, but he wasn't complaining at all. He was glad George didn't pull away. It made him feel like maybe he could do a little something for him.

Cisco just listened to him for a moment as he glanced out at the city. It was huge in comparison to home, though Central City was nothing to scoff at size wise, fake New York was something else. "It isn't your fault you know, for not noticing. Things happen so fast here. It's why I shut everything off the other day at first. I couldn't even breathe at the idea of keeping up." He admitted quietly as he watched a few clouds float by. His finger tips were spotted with black ink still, he hadn't gotten it off yet. He didn't have what Fred had suggested to clean it with, and didn't know where to get it in the 1920's. "I won't tell you not to be angry though, but maybe give yourself a break. You're a good son, brother, boyfriend." First time he'd said that out loud, boyfriend. He'd thought it a few times, said they were dating, but putting it to words was it's own experience.

"I've seen how much you care. Not noticing isn't a testament to that. I'm sure she knew it too, moms are pretty great like that." Cisco hadn't really spoken to his in quite a few years, but George's mom was great. He could understand the anger and frustration he felt.

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halfthere
2020-01-06 12:45 am UTC (link)

A break. George frowned but didn't argue exactly, at least not out loud. He had lied to his mother in the beginning, tried to hide the fact he was a Weasley because it had been too painful. He hadn't wanted to explain that he was one half of a set of twins that was no longer intact. He had helped some his future nephews hide stuff too. Merlin, he felt like a tosser.

"It...isn't just that," he finally said. "When Fred died I pushed everyone away really. I hated being home. Everything reminded me of my brother, my other half, and it was just like there was this anger building each time-" He scraped his teeth over his lower lip for a moment before he sighed. "I thought maybe I was getting better without that therapy thing you talked about, but shite like this keeps happening. I guess in a way I am doing better, not waking up on random couches after getting pissed the night before."

He relaxed against Cisco after a moment. "Aren't I just bloody delightful? Not sure I have many more flaws for you to learn about now." He was teasing slightly now since they had both seen sides of each other that most people avoided.

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onlygoodvibes
2020-01-06 01:05 am UTC (link)

"You can come with me if you want when we get back? Meet mine. See if you like him, there are other ones there if you don't though. You can pick your own It might help. I was nervous as hell going on my own the first round." He admitted as he listened, gave him a little squeeze for comfort. "You don't have to go to appointments with me though." He clarified. "You can make your own." He didn't think he'd want to share thoughts like that with someone around. "Think you have been. You said the last time was thanksgiving right?" Cisco hadn't even known, he frowned at that. He'd need to pay more attention to the signs of it. "Shit like this doesn't go away. Even when we're happy together, I thought it might too but it leaves scars. They are there to give us tools to deal with the injury. Physical injuries don't heal over night right? I mean not without magic...way I see it, neither do the mental." He paused as George leaned against him and gave a faint smile.

"I've been thinking.." A slight pause as he mentioned ending up on random couches. "Have you ever slept with anyone?" Kind of out of the blue, kind of not. It all had to do with getting drunk and distractions though.

"I'm sure we'll find a few more for each of us." He smirked as he gave him a little kiss to the jawline. "I still have a few for you to discover, the mystery isn't totally dead." He teased in return and even gave a little laugh. "I'm just pacing myself, keeping the magic alive." He stated with a wiggle of his fingers in attempt to lighten the mood.

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halfthere
2020-01-08 01:22 am UTC (link)

The talk was serious and George understood on some level what Cisco was saying. Injuries of his soul, his mind even, they didn't just heal overnight. There were scars that were barely formed inside of him. He hadn't been dealing with it back home and he had barely dealt here. The arrival of Fred had just been one giant potion poured over everything that acted like it was healing things.

Things were going to take time and he was going to have to figure out how to handle the moments when things got rough. A startled look danced across his face at the seemingly abrupt topic change. "Uh," he said rather eloquently at being asked about his sex life. His cheeks flushed before he cleared his throat and a laugh escaped him. "You've been thinking about whether or not I've slept with people, huh? Well, mate, I've shagged once or twice." It wasn't really a topic he was keen on discussing.

George rolled his eyes slightly. "Can't wait," he said softly. "To see what other magic you have in store." His lips, however, did quirk into a smile at his boyfriend's antics. "But maybe we can keep the issues to a minimum for a bit, yeah?"

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onlygoodvibes
2020-01-08 01:37 am UTC (link)

Not everything could be rainbows and magic firework wands all the time, he knew that. Serious things happened, but it was in how they dealt with them whether or not they'd survive-and so far it seemed like they were making it through their first bump in the road pretty decently to him. His eyes shifted away from him for a moment at the comment in a bit of embarrassment at first. Wrong time? Possibly, but Cisco wasn't exactly known for all his grace. The things were all connected, at least in his mind. Though he was often told he thought so far ahead that it didn't make sense to people occasionally. He prayed silently this wasn't one of those times.

"Maybe yes. For reasons." Obviously very suave with his words. "Things keep coming up, but I've been..wanting to, with you I mean." Lame, he was so bad at this. "Could be a distraction even, for stuff like this. You know, good big distractions from bad distractions..I don't..." His words trailed off, he was so awkward.

A smirk remained on his own lips as he re-wrapped that arm around him. "Yeah. Only the magic Well as magic as I can get anyway." Without actual magic.

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halfthere
2020-01-10 05:40 pm UTC (link)

George could only listen as Cisco tried to talk about shagging. A snort of laughter escaped him before he could stop himself. He finally twisted so he could pull his boyfriend in for a hug. His lips brushed against Cisco's temple. "Thanks, but I don't know if I am in the right mind space, which is a shite thing to say, but you know."

He pulled the older bloke in for a kiss that showed he did actually care about him. His remark wasn't just some way to brush off the guy. George finally pulled back from the kiss and gave a half-grin.

"Listen, let's just go back to the flat, listen to the radio or what have you, and give me time to, I don't bloody know, wind down?"

He gave Cisco another quick kiss. The thoughts in his head weren't calm yet, but he was doing a little better. Talking helped, actually it helped a lot. He'd have to ask Cisco about the therapist thing later, when things were calmer. Less hectic in his head.

"I do want to, eventually, by the way."

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onlygoodvibes
2020-01-10 11:47 pm UTC (link)

Cisco was awkward at best with these things, so when laughter happened he went quiet at first. Had it been a stupid idea? Chances were yes. For that split second before George had moved, Cisco's brain raced and attempted to swallow him whole with random worries and things. Thank god he didn't just freeze or go entirely silent or the engineer may have just died right there and then or found a rock or something to hide under. George had acted quickly enough to quell those urges, and the embarrassed heat he felt rise to his cheeks cooled a little. "Right. Yeah..It was..a thing." An idea he'd likely push off for a while now if he had the choice. Sure he wanted to still, but not at the cost of embarrassment. No more conversations about it, it'd happen when it happened.

Though that kiss had brought him back to the world, one where he hadn't failed entirely. He returned it eagerly and reached for one of his hands. "Yeah. Sure I can find something." Staring mindlessly at things for a while sounded pretty good. A nice cure for internal flailing. He gave him a little affectionate nudge and linked their fingers together. He returned the second and shook his head with a little laugh. "Maybe tea or something too" Normally he'd suggest alcohol, but not after what he'd said about the blackouts.

When he said he wanted to eventually, Cisco accepted that answer with a nod and lead him back toward the apartment. "Same, but when the time is right." He wasn't pressuring, he was just used to things moving so fast. Maybe slow wasn't bad, it was just a thing to get used to.

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