I wanted to go ahead and touch base because I know that I've left a few of you in a lurch without a lot of communication and without meaning too.
My mental health is not what it should be. It hasn't been for a while. I've been on medication since my sophomore year of high school to help me manage it, but my living and work situations in Texas haven't been ideal and it's taken a toll on me. Honestly, I hate it here. I had a few rough patches which ultimately cumulated in me moving in with my older sister Tracy and her toddler daughter. It's helped a lot, I love my family, but it's been an adjustment and a struggle. Both of us are looking to move home to be closer to my parents because on top of that they are going through stuff.
Back in March, my dad had a major cardiac episode, in which they found out he only has about 20% function in his heart. He immediately had some surgery, but a few weeks ago he found himself back in the hospital for chest pains, and they flew him cross country to a specialist where he had another surgery. And then on the flight back home, he had some blood pressure abnormalities which means he's still having issues and is still in the hospital, like thousands of miles away. So, it's just been a lot for me.
I'm really going to try to be better next month. Right now is graduation time, so what little time I'm out of bed has literally been decorating graduation cakes.
I'm really sorry. I promise to get this shit together and play the game. <3