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So, I was just exploring some other fandoms of mine, and I came across a fan’s sketch of a character that reminded me very much of Snape.

Now, let me just preface by saying that the character himself is from a completely different fandom (though, you’re quite likely to see him again in at least a couple of my blog posts either here or on Death to Capslock) where he plays a completely different role. However, this particular fan wrote a long, drawn-out analysis of how he viewed him, and some of the passages on it look like they could have been specifically written with Snape in mind. For example (the character’s name has been replaced with Snape’s to better clarify my point):

"[Snape’s] personality is a very complex series of contradictions.
At face value, it would seem that he is cold and emotionless, but underneath he is a broiling sea of repressed feeling, primary among them being hatred and need.
His ever raging core causes him great fear of his own nature, and so feels it best to push it deep away, maintaining a calm, stony facade.
[Snape] often maintains that he doesn’t feel anything, but he truly does, perhaps more deeply and intensely than any normal person, but he locks it away so deeply that only those closest to him could notice the slightest of changes in his demeanour.
It often seems as though he doesn’t care, but he actually cares about people so much, that it sometimes hurts him, and he truly fears that kind of pain.
The only thing [Snape] has ever really desired is true, unconditional love. There is still a small part of his heart that believes it could exist, but it is so heavily buried underneath his cynicism that it would take a lot of time, and a lot of love to uncover even a little."

There are also a couple of good nuggets from his past:

"There were many nights after either having things snatched away, or been beaten, that [Snape] would cry himself to sleep.
It didn’t take more than a few occasions, perhaps a couple of months, for him to realise that no-one would ever come to make him feel better.
He never shed another tear again."

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"[Snape] pinpoints that as the day he gave up on happiness. The day his heart broke and realised what the rest of his life would be like. For the first time, he had been shown real love, and it had died… The most devastating thing he had ever felt."

This could be referring to the SWM drama in another context.

And then there’s a lovely long list of pointers and factoids. The most relevant to Snape are below.

"Dislikes: Everything else, among the foremost are: Emotions, selfishness, vulgarity, over-sexualization and of course, [Dumbledore].
Positive traits: He is a very clear, logical thinker, and can solve many problems he encounters in not always the ‘right’ way, but certainly the most efficient… He is determined, and once he has set himself a goal, nothing will stop him from completing it… His (sic) is, for the most part, rather honest, maintaining that he has no motivation or reason to lie… Many of his actions are selfless, or he at least claims they are, and will often help others in need, if it is not detrimental to his own plans to do so.

Negative traits: While his thoughts may be logical, he has little consideration for ‘feelings’ or moral implications, and can often be blunt, rude and tactless in his actions… His determination can often come across as stubbornness, once [Snape] has made his mind up, little, if anything, can change it.

Preferred clothing style: Conservative. Anything that covers as much of his body as possible.
Attracted to: In a purely non-romantic way, he admires intelligent, perceptive and selfless people.
Sense of humour: [Snape] actually does have a sense of humour, though it is missed by most people. His cynical outlook lends itself to a very dry, deadpan wit. He is also rather sarcastic, but due to his tendency to speak in monotone, most people mistake it for sincerity."

That’s Snape for ya!

"After a lifetime of people telling him that he’s ‘not good enough’, all he really, truly wants is to be needed for what he is. Just, to be loved."

The URL for the full thing is below, so you can see if you uncover any other Snapely insights. And for those of you who visit Death to Capslock, keep an eye out for this character in my posts there as well:)

http://ask-cyrus.tumblr.com/headcanon