Seriously, I know I sound ~dramatic~, but I literally went to my bedroom and stayed there for three days after reading that one. I had been reading slash fic since 1980 and never before had I ever read any fic of that length with that kind of ending. I couldn't believe it. I mean, I actually like dark fic and even unhappy endings. But nothing that long. The emotional investment was too much for everything to go so wrong in the end. I know years later rakina. did something similar (though she fixed it in a sequel), but I happened to read it as a WIP so it didn't have the same impact. But, yeah. IYAP is the best story I'll never read again.