Severus Snape (severus_or) wrote in slytherin_or, @ 2008-01-20 14:22:00 |
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Current mood: | depressed |
Snape is feeling down [backdated to this morning]
He shouldn't feel this way, should he?
Severus had awoken with a groan and pulled the coverlet up over his head. The silence that pervaded the dormitory told him everybody else had already dressed and gone down to breakfast, but he felt like curling up in a ball and ... crying, as odd as that sounded, and even though he hadn't really cried in years. He'd just had the best day of his life on Saturday, and now -- on Sunday -- he felt as if his world had fallen apart. The night before, he'd barely been able to make out cloud nine from his elevated vantage point, so why did he now feel as if Sappho had told him she never wanted to see him again? Worse than that, actually. He felt as though he'd been kicked in the gut, in addition to Sappho's having told him off.
For a moment, he wondered if his pleasant memories of the night before had just been a wonderful dream. He was fairly certain that he and Sappho had spent the majority of the afternoon and evening curled up together in front of the common room fire -- kissing, cuddling, and talking -- and that he'd been very red in the face when he declined her offer of walking her to her side of the common room. Of course, once she'd cottoned on as to why (thankfully, he didn't have to say), she had not only understood but had been exceedingly flattered. And, twenty minutes later, when he'd calmed down enough to walk back to his dormitory (holding his cloak in front of him, just in case), he'd been smiling the whole time. And he'd drifted off to sleep still grinning from ear to ear.
But then he woke up, feeling like this.
What in the bloody blazes of hell was wrong with him? Was he simply incapable of being happy? That's what his father would have said. Always wearing a sour expression. Nothing was ever good enough for the boy. Et cetera, ad nauseum. For the first time in his life, however, Severus wondered if his lout of a father might have actually been right. And that, of course, made him feel even worse.
[OOC: There is a reason for this, really. I promise Snape isn't just incapable of being happy. ;-)]