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Sara ([info]ifdeathiskind) wrote in [info]silenstumulosus,
@ 2015-06-20 10:42:00

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Entry tags:mackenzie pembroke (evilmackenzie), malcolm wright (_fubar), miguel chanza (didntkeepit), newt (itchinmybrain), rachel (thefallenfourth), sara (ifdeathiskind)

Trigger warnings for nonconsensual medical procedure and cranks being cannablistic assholes


The TVs and other viewing devices flip on and the camera shows a little blonde haired blue eyed girl, maybe four or five years old, sitting at a kitchen table coloring a picture. Her eyes are red-rimmed from crying and she sniffles occasionally, working intently on her artwork as a little blonde haired boy comes into the room.

He crawls up onto the chair beside her and wraps his arm around her shoulders. "It's okay, don't cry."

"I miss mom," she whispers, leaning into the hug and dropping her yellow crayon.

His face falls at that but he hugs her tighter. "Me too. But it's okay. You've still got me and Dad."

* * *

The scene changes, revealing a slightly older blonde girl, maybe six or seven now, and she's hiding in her closet, huddled in the back of it in the dark, arms wrapped around her knees and head pressed against them as her little body shakes.

"...and when I find you I'm going to eat your fingers in a sandwich!" a man is screaming somewhere outside the closet. There's a loud crash and she flinches. There's another loud crash, and this time the sound of breaking glass. "Slice 'em right off with this glass from your fucking music box! You hear me, you little brat? I'm gonna have you and your brother for dinner tonight!"

The camera shifts just as the blonde boy from before comes into the room, holding a baseball bat. He swings it and hits the raging man with it, knocking him unconscious. "You won't touch her. Oi. Come out, we gotta leave now."

After a second the closet door opens and reveals the tiny girl, face tear-streaked and pale as she emerges, darting out and wrapping her arms around his waist tightly. "Why does daddy hate us?"

"He doesn't," he whispers, hugging her back briefly before grabbing her hand and leading her toward the door. "He's just sick. He doesn't mean to say those things. But we gotta leave before he wakes up."

"Where are we going?" she asks uncertainly, biting her lip.

"Somewhere safe," he promises, giving her a small smile before tugging her out of the room and away from the unconscious man on the floor.

* * *

The scene shifts again and the camera focuses in on a colorless gray room with a lot of medical equipment.

"Are you sure she's ready for this?" a man wearing a white lab coat questions, brow furrowed. "She's young."

"Her age doesn't matter. She's smart," a woman with long dark hair answers.

"We aren't supposed to be using anyone under 14," another woman points out even as she makes some notes on a chart, not looking up. "That's what we agreed on."

"Do you really want to listen to her screaming for her brother constantly for the next two years?" The woman arches an eyebrow. "She's disrupting the other potentials."

"So we're going to throw her into the trials early because she's an inconvenience? She might not survive a week." Now the man sounds frustrated.

"You're underestimating her."

"And you're the one who decided to name her after a poet and not someone with more...clout."

The woman looks thoroughly annoyed now. "Sara Teasdale was a very talented poet. It fits her. She's not like the others."

"Yes, well let's hope she doesn't share the poet's ending as soon as she's thrown into the fray," he responds wryly.

A second later two men dressed in pale green scrubs comes down the hall, carrying a blonde girl between them as she struggles to get free.

"Get off of me! Let me go! Where's my brother!? Where is he? What did you do to him? I'll kill you!"

One of the orderlies laughs at the threat. "Don't worry. You won't be missing him soon, Sweetheart. You won't be missing anything soon."

Sara's eyes go wide with fear and she begins to struggle harder as they carry her into the medical room. She manages to break one hand free and she lashes out, raking her nails down his face and drawing blood.

"You little bitch!" They drop her none-too-gently onto the exam table and she immediately bolts off of it, making a run for the door only to be grabbed back by the orderlies while the doctors watch passively.

"Sara," the dark-haired female chides softly, disappointment in her voice.

"That's not my name!" she says angrily, glaring at her.

She sighs softly and nods at the orderlies, who force her back to the table, holding her down while the man in the white lab coat uses metal restraints on her hands and legs to keep her from moving.

"You can't just do this to people! Where's my brother? Where is he?"

The woman gently smooths some hair out of Sara's face. "Shhh. It'll all be over soon, Sara. All the pain will be gone."

If that's supposed to soothe her, it has the opposite effect. She yanks her hands hard against the restraints, surging up off the table as much as she can and screaming obscenities.

The female doctor reaches up for a large mask that's above the table and presses it down over Sara's face. "Sara. WICKED is good," she whispers.

"She isn't sedated," the male doctor points out. "We should wait."

"I'm tired of waiting. Start the procedure," she responds evenly, fastening the mask on her face.

He purses his lips and presses a button on the machine. Wires suddenly protrude from the mask and slither into the blonde's ears. Clicks and hisses begin in the room and she's screaming now, not in anger, but in terror; in pain.

"We should've sedated her," the man mutters, standing still beside the table as she twists around, screaming, tears leaking from beneath the mask even when it all becomes too much and she simply passes out from the agony.

"She'll be fine. What doesn't kill us..."

Moments later, the wires are pulled back into the mask and one of the orderlies undoes the restraints before lifting her up and carrying her to the box, dumping her inside.

"Good riddance," he mumbles, shutting the door and locking her in.

* * *

"What the hell is this?" a brunette girl demands, picking up a piece of the food Sara's prepared for that night's dinner.

"It's deer," she answers, sounding uncertain. Almost nervous.

"It's burnt." The girl's mouth twists in disgust. "Again. God, Sara, you're so useless!" She heaves the burnt meat at Sara's head, but she ducks and it misses her, but just barely. "No one wants to eat this crap."

"Then maybe you should figure out how to cook for yourself," Sara snaps.

And just like that, the other girl turns over the table of food, knocking the blonde to the ground. "We all have jobs to do. You don't get out of it just because you're younger than the rest of us."

Sara glares up at her and slowly rises to her feet, keeping an eye on the other girl, fully aware that the others are gathering around now, too. "I'm not trying to get out of anything."

"What's going on?" A dark skinned girl pushes her way through the crowd, and sighs as she looks at the mess. "Someone better clean this up." Her gaze focuses on Sara and then she looks at the brunette. "Lose the attitude, Beth. She doesn't know what she's doing. It's not her fault."

"None of us knows what we're doing, but she's the only one here who isn't pulling her weight," Beth responds evenly. "I vote she spends the night in the pit after she cleans this mess up."

The other girl sighs heavily, looking reluctantly between them. "Sara, you have to do better," she says quietly. "We have a limited amount of food here. We don't know that they'll keep sending it up at all."

Beth folds her arms across her chest, clearly unhappy then watches as the other girl heads away. She turns her attention back to Sara. "You're lucky Harriet's the one in charge and not me. I'm watching you."

Sara says nothing as Beth turns and heads away. Then she closes her eyes for a moment, struggling not to cry before she begins to pick up the mess.

* * *

There's a spear in her hand as she runs through dark tunnels, behind the rest of the group. They're gaining ground behind her and she pushes herself to run just a little faster.

She's not a runner. She's never been a runner. Beads of sweat have broken out across her forehead and on the back of her neck.

"Come back here pretty girl," one of them snarls. "I'm hungry."

"We're all hungry," one of the others, this one a female calls, following up with maniacal laughter that sends a chill down Sara's spine.

She doesn't stop. She can't. The group is too far ahead, the cranks are too close behind.

Sara pauses long enough to grab a couple rocks from the ground, turning and heaving them back toward the cranks, nailing one right in the face and making him howl in pain. There's a moment of satisfaction but it's so temporary she barely feels it before she hurls the other stone and hits a woman in the chest. They're all pale and sickly looking, blood staining their clothes and hands.

She runs again, realizing with fear that she's even farther behind her group now and she's exhausted. She can't keep going much longer. She shrugs off the pack she's been carrying on her shoulders, heaving it behind her in another attempt to slow them down, hoping they trip over it, trip over each other. Maybe buy her a few more seconds.

And then someone's grabbing her left wrist, tugging her hard into another tunnel. A surprised sound escapes her as she finds herself facing a whole new group of Cranks with the others already crowding into the tunnel behind them.

"Well well well, what do we have here? Looks like WICKED has started delivering meals," the man says with a twisted smile as he slams her back and into the wall. "Too bad there's barely enough to go around."

The screen fades to black as she begins to scream.



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[info]_fubar
2015-06-20 05:24 pm UTC (link)
[He's less worried about the consequences of meeting up with Sara, especially since Miguel's cool with it. The girls are all nuts and Cain doesn't give a shit what happens to him so he's not stressing about their opinions. They seem to have forgotten how quickly he'd gotten attached to all of them. The connection had been instant. Maybe Ari gets it.

He avoids the cop cars he sees driving by, afraid they'll stop and pick him up for walking wrong or something as he shuffles through the crowded streets in the Vegas part of the city with his hand wrapped tightly on the gun tucked in his jeans. The loudness makes him increasingly nervous and twitchy until he spots her. He tugs the hoodie off of his now damp with sweat hair and lets out a breath he didn't know he was holding.

He hurries over and reaches for her hand so they can go inside together quickly and find somewhere less crowded before his heart pounds out of his chest.]

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[info]ifdeatheskind
2015-06-20 05:31 pm UTC (link)
[She slides her hand into his without hesitation, troubled by the expression on his face. He looks upset. Freaked out. His hand is sweaty, but she doesn't let go as he tugs her inside the hotel. She leads him to the desk, keeping hold of his hand with hers even as she uses her free one to pull out the little plastic card and slides it across the desk to the clerk, booking them a room.

She stares blankly at the clerk when he asks if they have any luggage they need carried up. Then she shakes her head and takes the flat key he gives her, sliding her card back into her pocket and tugging Malcom toward the elevator. They're the only ones on it when the doors slide shut and she looks up at him with worried eyes, reaching up with her free hand and gently stroking his hair.]


You okay?

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[info]_fubar
2015-06-20 05:38 pm UTC (link)
[He follows her lead through the hotel and the elevator but he doesn't start relaxing until they're alone again. He takes his hand off of his gun and nods.]

I'm good. [He smiles a little dismissively and walks farther into the room.] This place really is fancy.

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[info]ifdeatheskind
2015-06-20 05:45 pm UTC (link)
Yeah.

[The only hotel she's been to before -- at least that she can remember -- is the Hyperion. They're nice suites, but this one is ridiculous with marble counter tops in the kitchen area and a balcony with a view of the entire city. She runs her fingers along the counter tops to feel the cool, smooth texture beneath her skin.

She turns her gaze to him, watching him take it all in for a moment.]


Thanks for meeting me.

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[info]__fubar
2015-06-20 05:55 pm UTC (link)
[His focus is out the window at the view. It's even nicer here than where he stays. All the lights are less frightening when you're far enough away. He turns to face her when she addresses him.]
Did you think I wouldn't? [He shrugs.]

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 06:06 pm UTC (link)
[She moves over to stand beside him, staring out at the view, too.]

No. I thought you would. [Her voice is quiet, honest.]

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[info]__fubar
2015-06-20 06:12 pm UTC (link)
[He slips his hand into hers and locks their fingers.] See? Simple. [He nods over his shoulder at the door.] Though to be honest, I half expect the cops to bust the door in any second.

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 06:18 pm UTC (link)
Let's hope not. [She smiles faintly. She's a lot more worried about someone from his group busting through the door, but she doesn't say so.

She looks up at him, hesitating for a second and then moving closer, resting her free hand against his chest before rising up on her toes to kiss him.]


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[info]__fubar
2015-06-20 06:27 pm UTC (link)
[He almost makes a joke about having taking their clothes off again so the cops would know they got the right guy, but she's about to kiss him so he shuts up and hold her waist in his hands. He holds her close and returns the kiss and when he breaks it he's feeling breathless.]
Come back with me. [He whispers against her lips.]

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 06:36 pm UTC (link)
[She smiles faintly at his words, but it's a sad smile. She lifts a hand to his face then slides it around to the back of his neck.]

I can't.

[For so many reasons. She rests her forehead against his chest, moving her hands to rest on his hips.]

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[info]_fubar
2015-06-20 06:44 pm UTC (link)
[It feels like someone tied an anchor around his stomach and dropped it in the middle of the ocean. His eyes search hers for something he doesn't even know he's looking for. Or maybe it's just his way of stalling for a second so she can take it back and say yes, but that moment ends as quickly as it began. He licks his bottom lip into his mouth and chews it as he backs away from her.]

Okay.

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 06:52 pm UTC (link)
[Her eyes are sad as she looks up at him, willing him to understand, but when he backs away, her heart squeezes painfully in her chest and for a moment it's like she can't breathe.]

I can't leave my brother and Rachel.

[Her voice is a whisper and she wants to close the distance between them again, but she's deathly afraid that he'll push her away if she does.]

I need them and they need me, like you need your group and they need you. But that doesn't mean that I don't -- [Her voice is strained and she looks away, ignoring a tear that makes its way down her cheek.]

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[info]_fubar
2015-06-20 06:59 pm UTC (link)
I get it, Sara. I understand. [He does even though he doesn't want to. It doesn't make the rejection hurt any less, though, and her crying makes him feel like an asshole.] What are you crying about? It's fine. Forget it. It was a stupid idea.

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 07:15 pm UTC (link)
[She closes her eyes, forcing herself to take a deep breath and let it out slowly as she tries to pull herself back together.]

It wasn't. [She looks up at him, expression troubled.]

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[info]_fubar
2015-06-20 07:31 pm UTC (link)
Yeah, it was. [He doesn't feel like arguing about it. He can practically hear the girls in his group pursing their lips and saying how they told him so. He makes his way to the mini bar.] Whatever. Let's drink.

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 07:40 pm UTC (link)
[She doesn't want to argue about it either and the way he dismisses it hurts but she pushes it back in her mind the way she does everything else because it doesn't really matter. None of it matters. She watches him as he heads to the mini bar and then looks down when she sees a message from Newt on the tablet on the bed.]

I'll be right back. [Her voice is quiet and she picks up the device and heads out on the balcony.]

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[info]__fubar
2015-06-20 07:49 pm UTC (link)
[He busies himself pouring the tiny bottles of alcohol into soft white cups he finds wrapped in plastic, not acknowledging her when she leaves. He doesn't know what he was thinking to ask her to join them. She has a group already and her brother's in it. The only thing dumber than asking her was letting himself feel this way after she gave him such an obvious answer.

He drinks everything in his cup like a shot and eyes hers but resists it. He grabs another teeny bottle of clear stuff and drops down on the bed while he waits for her to come back.]

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 08:13 pm UTC (link)
[She comes back inside a few moments later, looking a little more pale and tired than before. Apparently lying your ass off to one of the few people who care about you takes a lot out of a person. Still, she sits down besides Malcom on the bed, offering him the faintest of faint smiles as she reaches out for the cup and knocks it back without even making a face.

It tastes a lot better than the homemade liquor from the Glade, that's for sure. She sets the cup down on the nightstand and turns to look at him again, leaning closer and hesitating a second before pressing a kiss to his mouth once more.]

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[info]__fubar
2015-06-20 08:22 pm UTC (link)
[He doesn't hesitate in kissing her back and pulls her closer, shifting himself so that he's mostly on top of her. He slips one of his hands under her shirt and rests it on her stomach.] I want you. [He breathes in between kisses.]

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 08:35 pm UTC (link)
[She relaxes when he kisses her back, doesn't protest when he shifts them so they're lying down on the bed. Her skin feels hot where he's touching her and the images from the video earlier flit through her mind but then vanish as their kisses get more intense.

She slides her hands down to grasp at the bottom of his shirt, pulling it up and off his head, tossing it aside in response.]


Me too.

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[info]__fubar
2015-06-20 08:58 pm UTC (link)
[When she removes his shirt he moves onto her all the way, trailing kisses down her jaw to the side of her neck while his hands move up her torso.

Then the TV flicks on behind him. He huffs out a curse and turns around, thinking he could cover the screen with his shirt...but then he sees a baby version of Sarah and freezes.]

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 09:05 pm UTC (link)
[She freezes when he does and sits up slowly, eyes glued to the screen, face paling as she watches the scenes unfold. Her heart is beating quickly again and she feels cold all over when it ends. She swallows hard, wanting to reach out and do something, hug him, but she doesn't.

Instead, she moves off the bed and picks his shirt up off the floor and moves to stand in front of him, gently pushing it into his hands.]


Go. [Her voice is quiet, urgent.]

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[info]__fubar
2015-06-20 09:19 pm UTC (link)
[He's stunned in his spot until she hands him his shirt. He yanks it on, takes out his tablet to tell Sarah that he's coming, and runs off without looking back.]

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[info]ifdeathiskind
2015-06-20 09:24 pm UTC (link)
[She gets it now, why they hate her so much. She hadn't had any idea before. Not really. She watches him go and sits back down on the edge of the bed, sad smile on her lips.]

Bye, Malcom.

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