wastedonyou (wastedonyou) wrote in shadows_rpg, @ 2020-08-10 14:16:00 |
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Entry tags: | #flashback, jai, jai x zach, zach |
Who: Jai and Zach
When: approx 6 years ago, summer
Where: their apartment in Castle View
Warning: turns NSFW
Status: Complete
It had been almost six months since his top surgery, and Zach had yet to tire of looking at himself in the mirror. Being on testosterone for years had made his body more masculine, but it had never felt complete until he went under the knife. Funny how taking something away made him feel more whole. Spending a lot of time looking at his chest had gone from something he avoided to something he relished, and he was currently so glad it was summer. The freedom to wear tanktops and go shirtless at the beach was incredible. And best of all -- no more binders.
He had just gotten out of the shower in his and Jai’s apartment in Castle View, and he had to take a few moments to flex in the big steamy mirror and look at himself. He was working out a lot in between shifts as a busboy at Moxie’s, and he was really starting to see some definition in his chest and arms. For the first time in his life, Zach was feeling like he was hot. It was fucking nice. He knew he was lucky that his family was largely supportive and that he’d gotten on T and had his surgery fairly early -- a lot of people had to wait far beyond nineteen years old to feel this way. But Zach could appreciate his good fortune and make sexy faces at himself in the mirror at the same time.
He left his hair damp and curly and didn’t bother to dry off much before he wrapped the towel low around his waist and sauntered out of the bathroom. Zach padded into the kitchen to get a drink, keeping his eyes and ears peeled for Jai. So maybe he wanted to show off a little bit, what was wrong with that?
Having bypassed a traditional college - not that he really had the grades to get into one anyway - Jai had taken some online courses and certification classes. He worked IT now for Anthony D'Onofrio's businesses and it kept him busy. He didn't get paid a whole lot yet, but it was enough to move out of his parents' house and into an apartment. It was nice having privacy. He even had his own bathroom. Being able to come and go as he pleased was awesome, and he could make a mess if he wanted to, although he was more mindful now of trying to keep things tidy since he was the one cleaning up instead of his mom.
He was out on the patio, scrolling through his Facebook and listening to some kids splashing around in the pool. Eventually he started to sweat from the sunshine beating down in him, so he went back inside, where he found Zach in the kitchen. Of course he was parading around in only a towel. The sight prompted Jai to grin as he slid the door to the patio shut behind him. "Looks like you might be starting to finally get some muscles. What're you benching now... 75?" He was teasing, of course, because that was much easier than ogling.
As soon as Jai had gotten an apartment of his own, Zach had been lobbying to move in with him. Not that it had taken much convincing. He didn’t make a lot either, but he paid a few of the bills and the situation had been working out pretty well for the both of them. Zach thought so, anyway. It definitely gave them plenty of privacy, which ... well, it was awesome. Zach smirked as he lifted his Gatorade bottle to take a sip, leaning against the edge of the kitchen counter. “Seventy-five hundred? Yeah totally,” he teased back. He was actually fairly proud of the progress he’d been making in the gym, but he didn’t like to talk about it that much, aware how annoying it was for people who weren’t also gym rats. Zach made a show of lifting one arm to flex it, fake-cooing his adoration before he kissed his bicep, then laughed. “Naw ... but more than you can, I bet.”
Jai snorted as he walked into the kitchen to grab a drink of his own. "It's hilarious that you think I'd bench anything, or go anywhere near the gym." He pulled a bottle of water from the fridge and turned toward Zach. "Some guys gotta work hard for their bodies, but me? Nah. I'm just naturally fit, what can I say?" Honestly though, Zach's body was becoming well defined and Jai appreciated the muscles he could see. His own body was a bit lean, but he had no desire to spend hours at the gym, sweating around a bunch of lunkheads. He was only teasing anyway, since he knew working out made Zach feel good, and Jai wanted that for his brother more than anything else.
If working out didn’t make Zach feel so right and masculine, he probably wouldn’t do it as much as he did. It just helped him feel more like himself, and he was hooked on that feeling now. Plus it was pretty much the one thing he was into that wasn’t seen as nerdy as hell. He didn’t care at all that Jai didn’t work out, he was hot enough as it was, all jokes aside. Zach tittered, shifting in a little closer to his brother as he stepped into the kitchen without even thinking about it. “You can say you’re damn grateful, ‘cause I had to give myself shots and cut parts off to get here, talk about working hard,” he said lightly, grinning. Joking about his transition journey came easy to him nowadays, now that he was on the other side of it and happy. “You’re aight, though, I guess,” he added, giving Jai a teasing once-over look.
Jai twisted the cap off the bottle of water and smirked softly before reaching over to tousle Zach's hair. His brother may be older now and filling out, but he still felt like he had the right to tease and treat him like he was a pain in the ass sometimes. "I'm damn grateful," he said, and he was. All he wanted was for Zach to be comfortable in his own skin. Happy. No matter what it took. “Hey man, I’m hot as fuck.” Jai sipped his water and glanced down at his own body. He was in cargo shorts and a brightly colored t-shirt. "You think I could use some definition though? Maybe I can get some short shorts and a tight tank top and saunter around the gym. I could get one of those sweatbands for my hair?" Jai grinned and began to do lunges while holding his water. "Maybe watch myself in the mirror, right? Flex?"
Zach grinned and slapped at Jai’s arm good-naturedly at the touseling, something he never actually minded. His brother’s fingers in his hair in any form made him tingly. The lunging made him laugh, and he tried to picture it in tiny gym clothes and the mental image was both hilarious and hot, at least to him. “Oh yeah totally,” he was agreeing, grinning back. “Just make sure everything you wear is like, neon? And bring you a speaker with some 80s hits, you’ll fit right in.” He leaned and reached around to smack Jai’s ass, then darted out of reach to safely swig some more Gatorade. “I’ll even spot you while you bench your twenty pounds or whatever,” he added with a grin. Honestly, he was grateful that Jai didn’t like the gym, he didn’t think he could handle working out together without ogling his brother too openly.
"Neon." Jai stopped lunging and took another sip of water. "Damn, I probably have to go shopping. Do they even make neon clothes anymore?" Snickering, Jai figured even if they did, he could probably pull off those kinds of clothes. He was just one of those people that looked good in just about anything, even weird ass clothes. At least that's what Jai thought. Who cared about anyone else? "You'll spot me though? What's that entail... like... standing there while I show off my muscles?" Jai moved closer to Zach, smirking softly. "I think spotting is basically just an excuse to stand there and drool over someone while they're on their back and grunting."
Zach would’ve agreed that Jai looked good in anything, because he really did. He just had those kinds of good looks. But he looked the best in absolutely nothing, in Zach’s biased opinion. “It entails standing there and ogling you while being ready to grab the bar for you if your arms give out, so I mean, you’re not wrong,” he told him, his stomach giving a happy little flutter as Jai moved in closer. He reached up to pinch at one of Jai’s biceps. “I get some good eye candy and get to be a hero if you start to drop it with these noodly arms.” Zach flashed him a grin. He obviously loved and worshiped every inch of Jai’s body, but talking bullshit was really their main way of flirting and had been for years.
Jai glanced down at where Zach had pinched his arm. "Okay, so am I eye candy even with noodly arms? Do noodly arms turn you on? I'm getting mixed signals here." He grinned a little and put his bottle of water on the counter. "And we both know that you like the fact that I'm stronger than you, no matter how many times you flex and kiss your muscles." Zach had always been more agile and quick, but it had always been easy for Jai to overpower him when he wanted to. That might be changing a bit now that Zach was hitting the gym more, but Jai still enjoyed the challenge.
Zach made a show of rolling his eyes, though the half-grin he couldn’t contain and the happy flush to his cheeks gave away his true feelings around this conversation. “Stronger than me? Oh please,” he said, more happy fluttering happening in his gut. Jai was still stronger than him, that got reinforced every time they wrestled, but Zach wasn’t going to just agree to that out loud. “I mean, you’re eye candy all the time, but I’m ogling more than just your arms,” he added reasonably, as if that explained everything. He lifted one arm to flex it, enjoying the way it looked when that bicep muscle made its little mountain. “See? I mean, you can kiss it too if you want.” He grinned wickedly at Jai.
"It's so cute." Jai poked at the flexed bicep. "It's like the Little Engine That Could." Then he laughed and pushed Zach playfully. "You know I'm just fucking with you. The gym agrees with you. Honestly, if I had any patience for it, I'd probably go with you." And honestly, Jai would probably just go to watch Zach work out and get sweaty. He was proud of everything that Zach had been through and what he had done for himself in the past couple of years. His brother had always been cute but now he was hot and Jai was pretty sure he wasn't the only one in town who thought so. That thought had his eyes wandering over the rest of Zach and Jai smirked softly. He was well aware of the fact that his brother was parading around in a towel for Jai's benefit. "It's fine though, I prefer other methods of exercise."
Zach tried to tense up when Jai pushed him, but he swayed anyway, snickering at the insult. He was pretty sure if Jai came with him to the gym he would never be able to concentrate, so it was just as well that it was his own thing. They could get sweaty and tired on their own. Speaking of ... the way Jai’s eyes crawled over him made a flush bloom on his chest and start to creep its way up his neck. Their lives had gotten so much easier when they’d moved in together, the apartment giving them the kind of privacy they’d wanted for years. It made sense for brothers to live together, and with separate rooms and the way they sometimes bickered in front of people, Zach was pretty sure nobody suspected anything. “Oh yeah?” he asked, smirking at Jai so much his cheeks were starting to hurt. “Like what?” As if he didn’t know.
Jai knew that Zach knew. But he was okay with playing this game. His brother was doing his best to keep that smug smirk on his face, but Jai could see the way his skin was coloring, turning pink. It wasn't from embarrassment, he knew that much. Jai had gotten pretty good at reading Zach. It certainly helped that they sometimes shared feelings and thoughts, although they had both gotten better at controlling that. Even so, Jai still loved getting under Zach's skin when he could. "I guess I could see if I could bench you," he teased, his fingers reaching for the towel, just to touch. "I bet I could. But then I'd have no one to spot me, so that'd probably be dangerous. I think I read somewhere that fucking burns like... a hell of a lot more calories than weight lifting." He hadn't really read that anywhere, but it sounded good in his head.
The touch was light enough that Zach couldn’t exactly feel it through the terrycloth, but he was very aware it was there, and it was all he could do not to grab Jai’s wrist to guide his hand to where the tuck was. Jai undressing him was one of his favorite things in the world, even if it was just one piece of cloth coming off. He snickered a bit at the fleeting mental image of Jai bench-pressing him, much more delightful pictures starting to run through his head. He could feel arousal tingling through his body now, and Zach didn’t try to hide it, physically or psychically. He licked his lips, leaning his ass against the edge of the counter a bit with his eyes locked on his brother’s face. “Guess you’d better find someone to fuck then,” he murmured, his smile still cheeky. “Don’t wanna get chubby.” Zach was pretty sure that was impossible, and his hand came up to Jai’s waist as if to pinch, but he caressed the firmness instead.
"Definitely don't want that," Jai agreed, his own body feeling those all too familiar tingles as soon as Zach touched his side. Letting go of the towel, Jai leaned forward and placed his hands on the counter on either side of Zach, boxing him in. His eyes were on Zach's, the tiniest hint of amusement in them. His brother smelled amazing, which Jai figured was just a mixture of his natural scent and the soap. He almost felt guilty that Zach would no doubt need another shower later. Almost, but not quite. Jai's cock was starting to fill out in his shorts, just at the close proximity they were in now. But what else was new? His body was always hyper aware of when Zach was near. "I guess I could text a few people, see if they wanna come over. Unless you've got a better suggestion."
Zach’s face had gotten a little slack and he was definitely blushing now, though there wasn’t anything shy or embarrassed about it. That was just what happened to his skin when his heart was beating harder and certain parts of him started throbbing. Jai was good at doing that to him, especially when he was so close and surrounding Zach like that. Their attraction to each other had first come out while they were wrestling, and he still loved to be pinned in any sense by his brother. Zach briefly sucked his bottom lip into his mouth as his gaze drifted over Jai’s face, his other hand moving to rest on his waist as well. “You don’t gotta bother anybody,” he murmured, his tone still light as he pulled the hem of Jai’s shirt up enough to brush his fingers against bare skin. “Short notice, you know? Bet I could help you out ...” He pushed his hips forward enough to close the gap between them, another faint smile crossing his lips as he felt that Jai was getting hard.
"You wanna spot me?" Jai grinned lazily, clearly meaning something completely different than gym jargon. It was really hard to resist fooling around when Zach decided to hang out in nothing but a towel. But then again, it was generally hard to resist fooling around when Zach was fully dressed too. This though, this was a clear invitation. His cock responded quite favorably to the soft friction of Zach pushing up against him, flexing in his shorts and feeling restricted by all of the material. "I'm afraid I'd get you all dirty again," Jai murmured before leaning in to nip at Zach's lower lip. "But I'm not gonna say no if you wanna help me out anyway." He would return the favor too, like he always did. But it was fun to tease sometimes and he honestly couldn't get enough of it. Jai had slept with his fair share of people, but it was never as hot, or as fun, as when he was with Zach. It was a twisted fact, but a fact nonetheless.
The little lip bite made Zach hum low in his throat, and his stomach gave a happy sort of drop. He’d had a few sexual encounters with people other than Jai himself -- though not nearly as many as he knew his brother had -- and he had yet to find anyone who could turn him on like Jai could. He wondered sometimes if it had something to do with their brain connection, like they created a feedback loop of arousal when they were both horny, like occasionally happened with other emotions. Whatever it was, it felt fucking good and he always wwanted more of it. “I never mind getting dirty with you,” he murmured back, his lips brushing against Jai’s. “So yeah, I wanna spot you ... kiss you ...” He paused to do just that, a soft teasing pressure, before he went on, “... suck you ... fuck you ... anything you want ...” Zach spread his hands against Jai’s back and pulled him in tighter, rocking his hips to rub against his captive cock.
Jai was on board with all of those things. He wasn't thinking much about their brain connection anymore. All he was focused on was his cock and how badly it wanted attention now. Since Zach was increasing the friction between their bodies, Jai pressed him back, harder against the counter. "I think I wanna do all those things," Jai said before ducking his head to bite gently at the side of Zach's throat. "But I wanna do anything you want too. So it seems like we're probably on the same page." Honestly, as long as it was getting naked with each other, Jai was all for it. "Wanna go to my room?" They could fuck around in the kitchen but that wasn't terribly comfortable unless it was a quickie.
Zach loved being pinned like that, and the light sting from the nip at his neck made his eyes roll back for a moment, his fingers pressing in harder against Jai’s back. He could feel the pressure now against his own mini cock, and he was turned on enough that the roughness of the towel against the tip felt pretty damn good. Zach let out a dreamy little laugh. “Think we both just wanna come ‘til we can’t see straight,” he murmured with a grin, then nodded and let his hands slip out from under Jai’s shirt. “Fuck yeah I do.” He had nothing to do for the rest of the day and he was pretty sure Jai’s schedule was equally clear, so there was nothing stopping them from filling up those hours with all sorts of carnal delights. He pushed back against Jai a bit harder, urging him to move so they could go ... but also because it just felt good.
Jai wasn't sure if he had anything going on later or not. His mind was too clouded and foggy with arousal at the moment to think of anything. At least not anything that didn't revolve around getting Zach naked. After another moment of nipping at Zach's neck, Jai pulled away to take Zach's hand and lead him out of the kitchen and towards his own bedroom. Once they were inside he didn't bother closing the door. It was just them in the apartment and Jai kind of loved that they had all the privacy that they wanted. Before he started to shed his clothes, Jai tugged Zach in towards his body to kiss him, his hands sliding over Zach's waist and hips. His own body felt like it was buzzing in anticipation of more and Jai had yet to find someone else who could invoke that kind of sensation in him. He supposed a lot of it had to do with their connection but Jai had stopped overthinking that whole thing years ago. Now it just felt like another part of him, as natural as breathing. It was so much easier to accept it than to deny and keep running from something that ultimately made him feel this good.
Zach still got occasional flashes of ‘this is wrong’ when they were together, but they were always fleeting thoughts, coming more from society’s conditioning than what he truly thought. Because it always felt so right at the same time. Like they were meant to do it, to be together, two pieces of a puzzle that were made for each other. He loved Jai on every level, and he knew Jai loved him back, and why should anybody else dictate how they should express that? He hadn’t let anybody else tell him who he was with anything else, he wasn’t going to start with this, which made him stupidly happy. Zach eagerly plastered himself against Jai’s lithe body, kissing him back with enthusiasm, fingers slipping into his thick dark hair as their tongues caressed one another. He was aching to be naked together already, he wanted the damp towel off of him now, and just to make all of Jai’s clothes disappear. To make that happen, Zach moved one hand to the back of Jai’s t-shirt to start pulling it up. “More skin,” he mumbled into the kiss.
Chuckling into Zach's mouth, Jai then pulled back just long enough to grip the hem of his t-shirt to tug it off over his head. He dropped it to the floor and then playfully flexed one arm. "No weights required," he murmured with a grin. That wasn't necessarily true, but it was just in his nature to tease Zach whenever he could, even when they were getting hot and heavy. He worked on getting his shorts unbuttoned and unzipped, letting them fall to the ground, leaving him in his tented boxer briefs. Then he tugged Zach to him again before gripping the towel to get it away from Zach's body. "Bed," he muttered, moving Zach toward the edge of his mattress. Jai was aware that he was being a little bossy but he doubted Zach minded it much.
Zach’s hands were drawn to Jai’s body as soon as more of it was exposed, skimming up his flat stomach to his chest while Jai got his shorts off. He was completely gorgeous and sexy to Zach, gym-muscles or no, and Zach’s stomach twisted in the best sort of way when Jai pulled in him again. The towel being pulled off was even better, and he relished the feel of most of their bodies pressed together. Especially the sizable bulge in Jai’s underwear. Zach shuffled along where Jai guided him, only stopping when he felt the edge of the bed against the backs of his legs. He didn’t mind Jai being bossy at all, he always thought it was super hot, actually, especially when he pinned Zach down to have his way with him. Able to feel his heartbeat in his cock now, Zach sat on the mattress, knees spread wide so he could stay close and press kisses against Jai’s stomach.
Jai's hands ran through Zach's hair, his skin tingling underneath Zach's lips. It felt so good that he resisted the urge to push Zach back on the bed, instead allowing Zach to take his time with his mouth. His cock was straining against the fabric of his boxer briefs, desperate for touch, but that only seemed to make it all feel that much better. There were plenty of times they were rushed and impatient, but taking their time was just as good, especially when they didn't have to be anywhere, or hurry to avoid getting caught. Besides, it was really fucking hot to look down at Zach and watch every single thing he did. Jai had always been a visual person, so he did his best to keep his eyes open so he could trace every movement of Zach's mouth on his skin.
Having time and privacy had been a novelty when they’d first moved in together, but they’d often still found it challenging to slow down. Once they got going, they tended to just want to devour each other. It had taken some practice to pace themselves, at least on Zach’s end. He felt positively melty at the feel of Jai’s fingers in his hair, and he huffed a heavier breath against his brother’s skin as he kissed it here and there, working his way down to the elastic of his boxer briefs. Giving a soft groan, Zach dipped his head to press his lips against Jai’s trapped erection, breathing warmly through the cotton and rubbing his mouth against it to tease. Zach was mildly obsessed with Jai’s dick, and he almost loved playing with it more than getting pleasure of his own. Zach licked at the tip through his underwear and let his teeth graze against it before he hooked his fingers into the waistband to pull it down just enough to expose the head of his cock. He swiped his tongue against it a few times with relish and sucked a bit at the very tip, glancing up at Jai’s face as if looking for approval.
Jai's entire body seemed to tense the closer Zach's lips got to his dick. His erection strained against the fabric of his boxer briefs, but Jai was careful not to guide Zach too impatiently. Instead his fingers continued to slide through Zach's hair, a low groan forming in his throat as soon as he felt Zach's breath hot and enticing through his underwear. "Fuck," he whispered, his eyelids heavy. But he watched Zach, his cock twitching in anticipation. Fingers tightening in Zach's hair, Jai licked his lips and groaned again as soon as that wet heat wrapped around the tip of his cock. There was never a time Jai didn't approve of Zach's mouth on his skin and it felt so damn good to just stand there and enjoy the sensation. "Your lips look so good around my cock," he murmured. Sometimes he wished he could just take a picture of it on his phone so he had more material to jerk off to, but that kind of shit was too dangerous to keep stored somewhere else. He'd have to be content with committing the sexy images to memory instead.
Sometimes Zach sent Jai links to videos he put out on porn sites so he could watch if he wanted ... but he recognized the danger in them taking pictures together. His body and face were out there on the internet anyway, so he wasn’t worried about that, it was just the association between him and Jai that couldn’t go public. Zach was something of an exhibitionist, so sometimes he wished that was possible. His top fans would love to watch them fuck -- and tip accordingly, he was pretty sure -- but it wasn’t worth the risk. He got Jai all to himself, in the flesh, and that was enough. Considering how much he loved to show off, Jai’s words of praise made him tingle from head to toe, and he moaned softly around his brother’s cock. Zach tugged his underwear down further, sliding his mouth down that hot, solid length as he went. He was still sucking gently, not wanting to ramp things up too fast because he definitely wanted Jai to fuck him for a while. Zach tongued at the spots he knew were sensitive, humming his appreciation again as he started to slowly bob his head.
Jai often enjoyed watching the videos Zach sent, though always in a private window on his phone and usually when he was jerking off. But he loved seeing and getting the real thing more than anything else. He knew his brother was hot and he got a lot of attention online for that but Jai was pretty sure the internet was the extent of how many other people got to see Zach naked. That moan of his sent a tingle down Jai's spine and he shivered, stroking his fingers through Zach's hair again. They had done this enough times now that Zach knew what pace Jai needed, the pressure he liked. His toes curled against the floor but he forced his eyes open to watch the way Zach's lips moved over his cock. "Fuck," he whispered, his breath hitching when Zach's tongue hit a particularly sensitive spot. He was of the mind that he wanted to fuck Zach too, so he was going to try really hard not to come too soon... but... it felt too damn good to stop. He wanted to be selfish for a couple more minutes.
The internet was a strange place and it didn’t always feel safe to Zach. Being trans put a target on his forehead to some people, and occasionally they leaked through all the other positive attention. But he always felt safe with Jai. Jai knew him, body and soul, and loved him no matter what, and Zach couldn’t imagine his life with even a reduced amount of Jai’s presence, so he’d become the happiest he’d ever been since they moved in together. Especially since he got to do this whenever he wanted. He pushed Jai’s boxer briefs down until they pooled around his ankles, then let his hands roam over his thighs and hips and ass, groping him as he sucked a little harder and took him a little deeper. Zach brushed his fingers over Jai’s balls, doing his best to resist the urge to touch himself at the same time. He was wet and throbby, but he wanted to make it last on his end too.
It was so nice to be touched in such a worshipful way. Jai had always been a sucker for affection in any form and nothing quite came close to the way Zach touched him, even when they weren't fucking around. The hot sensation of Zach's mouth sucking at his dick, along with the added stimulation of his hands all over his body was making it difficult for Jai to concentrate. Not that he really needed to, but he didn't want to get off too soon. He was young enough that it didn't take him terribly long to get it up again, but he wanted to fuck Zach more than anything else, so he gripped his fingers in Zach's hair, groaning low and trying to find the willpower to stop his brother before he started fucking his mouth past the point of no return. "Fuck," he whispered again. "Gotta stop, or I'm gonna come."
For a second Zach was tempted to just let it happen, let Jai take over the pacing until he filled Zach’s mouth, but the ache in his core was demanding. They had all day, Zach could just blow him later if they were still horny. He pulled off of Jai’s cock, a smile crossing his wet lips as he watched it bob and flex a little in the air. God, it was beautiful, and he got a pang of that bittersweet mix of love and jealousy that sometimes bubbled up. Zach planted a couple more kisses against Jai’s stomach, then leaned back and scooted himself further back on the bed. “You’re so fuckin’ hot,” he murmured with a small half-smile. Zach spread his legs a bit and slipped a hand between them to rub himself just a bit, his eyes still on his brother. “Where do you want me?”
It was hard not to whine a little when Zach pulled his mouth away but Jai knew if he kept on going that this would all be over way too soon. But he was more than ready to put his cock somewhere else tight and warm and Jai grinned lazily down at his brother. He supposed in a completely self-centered sort of way he already knew he was hot, but it was still nice to be told so. What guy didn't like feeling desired by someone else? "Turn around. Get on your hands and knees..." Jai couldn't help but want a little bit of control now. He was used to being the dominant one in bed - for the most part - and Zach rarely seemed to mind it.
Zach certainly didn’t mind it today, and he flashed a grin before he rolled over and pulled his knees up under him. He was so in control of the rest of his sexual expression -- which mostly consisted of putting on shows for people online these days, which took more planning than most people would guess -- that he loved to just give himself to Jai. His brother was pretty much the only person he fully trusted, and Zach knew that Jai genuinely wanted him. All of him, exactly how he was. Zach made a little show of pushing himself up onto his hands and knees, stretching like a cat to entice Jai before he settled into the position. “Anything you want,” he murmured, glancing back over his shoulder for a second. It was half sexy surrender and half a way to tell Jai that he was good with whichever hole he wanted to use. Some days he wasn’t, but they always worked around however he was feeling. Today he just wanted Jai inside him any way he could get it.
Despite how long they had been doing this, Jai was always still a little nervous when they got to this part. He never wanted to make Zach feel uncomfortable or bad in any way so he generally let Zach guide him with his mood. Thankfully Zach was pretty open about what he wanted, or didn't want, at the time and today seemed to be no different. Jai licked his bottom lip, stroking his cock idly as Zach got into position. His hands itched to touch though so he moved forward, running them over Zach's back to his hips. Anything you want. What guy didn't want to hear that when they had someone naked in their bed? Jai groaned softly in his throat as his hands gripped and squeezed Zach's ass before he reached down to nudge himself into place. Zach was already wet and while Jai tried to take it slow he couldn't help but push quickly into all of that delicious heat. "Fuck," he breathed, his fingers moving to Zach's hips to hold him tightly.
There had been times early on when Zach thought he could handle the potential dysphoria when he couldn’t, so he never blamed Jai for being hesitant or overcautious about sex. He appreciated the care behind it, really. But those days were fairly far back now, mostly because Zach had learned to read himself better and communicate that. Jai was always understanding if he just wanted to keep his boxers on and do oral, or if he was in an anal only mood, or even wanted to wear a strapon while they fucked. It was all just more evidence of how perfect Jai was for him, in Zach’s mind. His back curved lower and he sank his teeth into his bottom lip at the feel of Jai’s hands on him. The first thrust was faster and firmer than he was expecting, but it shot hot pleasure through him and Zach gave a sharp little cry. He pushed back against Jai though, already feeling greedy for more of him.
Jai groaned as soon as Zach's body pushed back to his and he felt his cock delve deeper. Heat licked down his spine and he had to pause for a moment until the urge to rut with abandon finally passed. He loved drawing these moments out but damn, sometimes he just wanted to completely lose himself in the sensations and fuck until he couldn't fuck anymore. That would be the ideal life, wouldn't it? Exhaling slowly, Jai shifted his grip on Zach's hips before he began to thrust again, trying to maintain a smooth rhythm. He wanted Zach to get off too, hopefully before he did. "You feel so good," he murmured, already feeling a bit breathless. "You're so fuckin' hot." It was his turn to shower his brother with compliments. Completely sincere ones too. It was almost annoying how attractive he found his brother to be.
Zach soaked it all in, the praise combined with Jai’s cock buried inside of him driving his pleasure higher already. He’d never had vaginal sex with anybody else, though he’d fooled around in other ways with a few guys in his life, and part of him was completely convinced it would feel awful with anyone but his brother. That was probably fucked up of him, but Zach was beyond giving a shit. He loved their life, he didn’t care if it was acceptable to anybody else or not. Unable to keep completely still, Zach rocked back to meet Jai’s hips, deepening each thrust. He lowered his upper body closer to the mattress, hands fisting in the sheets as he braced his head against one arm. “Fuck, Jai,” he moaned, not able to articulate much more than that. He was once again so grateful that they lived alone, because Zach got loud when they really got going. He already couldn’t stop the deep groans from escaping his throat.
Jai was never quite sure how many guys Zach had been with, or what they did together, and he had never really felt the urge to ask. Okay, so maybe he'd had the urge once or twice, usually when he was drinking. He didn't really want Zach asking about his sex life, so he tried to leave it alone. Even so, he liked imagining that he was the only one who got to do this, that he was the only one who could make Zach moan and move like that and completely lose control. It was probably dickish and possessive of him, but he really didn't give a shit. It was easy to justify when his cock was buried so deep inside of his brother. Smoothing his hand over the small of Zach's back, Jai looked down to watch where their bodies came together, harsh breaths escaping his lips. He slowed his pace deliberately, just to take the edge off the urge to come, but thrust harder, eager to drive Zach crazy.
If driving Zach crazy was the goal, Jai was well on his way. Maybe their connection gave him unfair standards to compare every other guy to, but nobody else had ever fucked Zach so well. He came harder and more often with Jai than any other partner he’d ever had, maybe that was why he couldn’t stay away. Not that he’d really tried in a long time. Why would he when everything they did together felt so fucking good? Zach kept moving with him even with the change of pace, needing those thrusts deep as more and more pleasure rolled up his body. The force of them pushed the breath out of him with every one, but Zach didn’t mind, staying vocal about how good it felt. He liked hard, sweaty sex that felt like the best kind of physical work you could do. His dick was throbbing in time with his thundering heart, dying for attention, but Zach knew he wouldn’t last long once he started touching himself, and he wanted to thoroughly enjoy the fucking first.
Every sound Zach made sent a fresh thrill down Jai's spine. He had never been an overly vocal lover himself, but goddamn he loved that Zach was. There was something incredibly sexy about knowing he was the one drawing those noises out of someone else. Like he was doing something right. He was only able to keep up with the slow but firm pace for so long before his body urged him to move again and Jai began to thrust in earnest, grunting softly with each movement. Fuck, it felt so good. Someday Jai would dream up some more interesting, descriptive words for what sex felt like with Zach. Good felt like it didn't come close to being accurate. His fingers pressing into Zach's skin harder, Jai began to pound into him, his eyes locked onto Zach's body, quickly losing himself in the whirlwind of pleasure that was starting to throb throughout his entire body.
Doing something ‘right’ didn’t even begin to cover it for Zach -- what Jai did to him was fucking divine. Every time, he felt like he was coming unraveled inside in the best fucking way. For his part, Zach loved feeling like he’d pushed Jai past the point of control, made him almost crazy with lust. He never minded the roughness on those days; it was so satisfying to be grounded in his body when there was some pain inside the pleasure, like he was getting back to some basic instinct that had to lie dormant most of the time. The way Jai ramped things up sent intense pleasure spiralling through Zach’s body and he felt himself clench tighter around that pummeling cock. Fuck, it was incredible. “Yes, fuck, fuck me, fuck me,” he panted, completely awash in sensation. Unable to resist while he was taking such a pounding, Zach slipped one hand under him and reached down to frantically stroke his cock. A handful of seconds later he was crying out, hips bucking and everything throbbing as he came hard around his brother.
Hearing Zach's voice only intensified the sensations pummeling through his body and Jai gripped his hips with bruising force, fucking his brother now with abandon. His balls were high and tight, ready to burst when he felt Zach tightened around him. "Fuck," he ground out, gritting his teeth. He pounded into Zach again and again until he finally let himself go, a strangled groan on his lips. His eyes closed, Jai's head fell back as his hips began to slow. He could hear his heart thundering in his ears and it was a miracle he managed to stay upright as everything began to cool. "Jesus fuck," he moaned, grabbing a handful of Zach's ass and squeezing. "I swear to fucking god, I'm gonna keel over and die from this someday."
The light pain from Jai’s fingers digging into his hips felt damn good to Zach, sort of grounding while most of him felt like it was flying into space. He always loved those hard-hitting thrusts while he was coming, as if Jai didn’t give a damn what Zach’s body was doing, he was going to fuck his brains out regardless. It was fucking glorious, and Zach felt like he had another mini orgasm right after the first, and then yet another wave of pleasure as he felt Jai’s cock swell and burst inside of him. If climaxing himself was his favorite feeling, that one was a close second. Zach grinned drunkenly where his face was half-pressed against the bed, an unsteady laugh escaping him. “You need more exercise then,” he mumbled, then tittered. God, the compliment made him feel like he was glowing, though. Zach shifted his upper body into more comfort, curling his arms under his head, but he wasn’t in any hurry to move, enjoying having Jai’s twitchy cock still inside of him.
"If it's that kind of exercise, I'm all for it." Jai groaned softly as he began to pull back. His thighs were still tense but he wanted to flop down and doze for a while. He smacked Zach's ass playfully before sprawling out on his bed. He would need to clean up in a few, but he just wanted to lay there and bask in the afterglow for a few minutes. "That's like... my version of you spotting me while I lift weights. Or... maybe it's cardio. I don't fucking know what any of those mean, to be honest." Jai exhaled and stretched a bit on his bed. "Now what am I supposed to do the rest of the day other than be lazy?"
As soon as Jai had moved away from him, Zach sat up and gave a languid stretch of his back. He snickered a bit at Jai’s words, moving to flop down next to him and snuggle in close once his brother was settled, more than happy to do some afterglow-basking. “You’re such a dumbass, it’s cardio,” he teased, grinning lazily. “And I vote you rest up a bit and then fuck me again ... or I’ll fuck you.” Zach tilted his head up a bit to flash his brother a wicked grin. It wasn’t that he wasn’t satisfied, he was at the moment. He just knew himself, and if he and Jai were just hanging out around the house with no obligations, he was going to want to fool around some more. That was just his drive. As long as Jai didn’t mind, that was, otherwise Zach would be taking care of it himself.
"Cardio is a stupid fucking word," Jai muttered. Then he chuckled a little before reaching over to poke Zach in the side. "Give me some time, man. Then you can do whatever you want to me." He couldn't even remember if he had any plans that day. It was like all thought capability had gone out the window as soon as he'd come. "At least give me, like... ten minutes." He had to figure all of Zach's energy came from exercise and all that stuff. It was enviable, but Jai had never minded being the lazy brother. It paired nicely with his "don't give a shit" attitude he did his best to project.
Zach laughed a little, even though the pit of his stomach fluttered at hearing that invitation. ‘Whatever you want’ was always such a nice phrase. “How about like, an hour?” he suggested, dipping his head in to nuzzle his nose against Jai’s arm. “We can have a nap first.” He wasn’t full of boundless energy, but it was definitely true that he was bouncier and more high strung than his brother. But Zach could rest too, especially if it meant snuggling with Jai. He always napped better with Jai’s arms around him. Zach topped off his nuzzling with a soft bite to the meat of Jai’s shoulder, then grinned at him. “But I’m holding you to that ‘whatever I want’ thing.”
Jai sighed happily and grinned. "You know me so well." He shifted a bit and then tugged Zach toward him to get comfortable. Napping sounded amazing. And knowing they could wake up and fool around again was even better. It would be easy to fall asleep with Zach there and he didn't even want to move. Maybe they could shower together when they woke up. Clean off and then get sweaty all over again. There was no better way to spend the day, if you asked him. "Don't snore though, or I'm kicking you out to your own room."
He snuggled in closer as Jai pulled on him, a wave of pleasure that had nothing to do with sex rolling through him. The orgasms were incredible, but the closeness was even better. At times like this, Zach felt like he would never need anyone else in his life. There was nothing conventional about them and how they lived, but he didn’t give a shit, it made him stupidly happy. Zach settled in, unmindful of the stickiness between his thighs. He could take care of it after he dozed skin to skin with his brother for a while. “Yeah yeah, try it,” he muttered with a soft snicker, settling his cheek against Jai’s shoulder, arm wrapped around him. He closed his eyes and let himself start to drift, sated and content.