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Ace (Shinonome Kon) (fill_the_blanks) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-11-06 01:01:00

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!days 280-289, aeris gainsborough, allen walker, claude c. kenni, hattori heiji, howard link, nakayama yayoi, rabi, shinonome kon, syaoran, watanuki kimihiro, ~librarian

Who: Lizardking
Where: Lizardking
When: Day 286, evening (post ideal-worlds)
What: gratuitous post

[passed out on a book at the table]

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Re: [ LATER ]

fill_the_blanks
2011-11-11 03:48 am UTC (link)

People can heal from a lot of things. But you agree that there's a cathartic way to let go and a way that'll leave scars, right? In this case there's a way to avoid making unnecessary wounds... This whole team needs you, or you wouldn't be stuck in the situation you're in... We're not talking about reliance where you serve a specific function, we're talking about the reliance of you existing in our lives. You're not just doing something pointless by staying, you're protecting our world...

Let me ask this, why does it have to be the way you're seeing it in your mind...? It's 'cause you've got wounds too, right?

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	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 03:59 am UTC (link)
	...... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 04:03 am UTC (link)
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	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 04:27 am UTC (link)
	... What do you think is "the way I'm seeing it"? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 04:31 am UTC (link)
	You go in, as prepared as possible, do everything you can to separate her halves, and destroy the Mirror who's become corrupt. That's what you want, isn't it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 04:37 am UTC (link)
	... [ there's the slightest nod. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 04:51 am UTC (link)
	So what I'm asking is... what does that satisfy that being involved in another way won't...? It's fine if it's something selfish... But that's what you have to to weigh against everything we've said. You've gotta be able to make that choice without regrets. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [ LATER ]

tothelight
2011-11-11 06:04 am UTC (link)

...none of the choices come with no regrets.

...

Being there... means being there. With my hands. With my will. With the only things I have that I could consciously make a difference with, at some moment that everything could rest on... that I couldn't have changed without being there. Others who go...they have their own wills. Their own feelings. I can tell them anything from the outside and there's a core of beliefs and instincts that won't change.

Most people don't.... know the other Mirror. They only know about her. Others want too much to destroy her altogether to care. Only a few of us who could go in have any kind of feeling or understanding otherwise. I'm not saying that either side is more right to feel their way than the other.... But it makes a difference in the choices made when there's no time to think, even though everyone would go in with the same goal in mind. The difference between acting or waiting a second longer. Between breaking something immediately and giving it a chance.

Even though I can't really protect anyone in there if it comes down to it. Even though I'm weak.

I don't want to regret "that moment" I could've done something in if I hadn't been somewhere else.

I know it's nothing weighed against to everything you've all said. To everything I've said against myself. Even I know I'm being an idiot, and selfish, and crazy.

But that's what it is.

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	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 06:22 am UTC (link)
	[scrubs a hand through his hair...] Okay... Then the next level down is... Which regret can you live with...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 06:29 am UTC (link)
	... [ mrgngh just. putting his hand on the back of his head ] ...I don't know. I don't know anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 07:13 am UTC (link)
	Okay... Well you don't have to decide now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 07:20 am UTC (link)
	...... [ .-. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 07:29 am UTC (link)
	[thumps him on the back] Well, you've got all the points you've gotta consider now, so worry about it when you've actually rested a bit. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 07:32 am UTC (link)
	[ --blinks ] ... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 07:58 am UTC (link)
	What's that stupid face for? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 08:57 am UTC (link)
	... Nothing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 09:04 am UTC (link)
	[jiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 09:10 am UTC (link)
	[ I feel your jiiiiiiiii and am unmoved ] [ ...easing out of that curled ball position, though, sitting up a little ] ...thanks, Ace. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 09:16 am UTC (link)
	You don't have to thank me, I just grilled you on your issues when you've probably just had the longest day since you started here and emotionally blackmailed you, not that it isn't all the truth. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 09:19 am UTC (link)
	[ ...huffs... ] Not like you didn't give me the option of backing out from the start. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 09:22 am UTC (link)
	In the end a choice is still a choice. How's your appetite, I kill it good enough yet? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] tothelight 2011-11-11 09:43 am UTC (link)
	.... [ getting to his feet and heading for the dresser ] It's been pretty hard to kill for a while now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ LATER ] fill_the_blanks 2011-11-11 09:53 am UTC (link)
	[idgi] Well, as long as it doesn't go to waste. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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