InsaneJournal

Rooms anonymous (roomsanon) wrote in rooms,
@ 2014-05-13 21:01:00

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*journal, anonymous, helena wayne, trystan chenille

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Ever hope that you'll fall asleep and find a sweet dream to never wake up from?

	chenille 2014-05-14 02:35 am UTC (link)
	the day you're born is the day you start to fight. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 02:36 am UTC (link)
	And maybe I'm tired of it. Maybe I'm ready just to sleep. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 02:37 am UTC (link)
	nothing's stopping you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 02:38 am UTC (link)
	[...] No. Nothing is. No one is. Maybe it's a sign. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 02:39 am UTC (link)
	not a fatalist, hm~? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 02:40 am UTC (link)
	Does it matter at this point what I am and what I'm not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 02:43 am UTC (link)
	likely; it could determine the rest of your life. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 02:44 am UTC (link)
	Which doesn't matter. I do the wrong thing no matter what. Even when I think I'm doing the right thing, I'm not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 02:47 am UTC (link)
	there is no right thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 02:49 am UTC (link)
	There's certainly one that's preferred. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 02:52 am UTC (link)
	according to whom? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 02:55 am UTC (link)
	According to everyone. And if you don't do what they want you to do, or you don't answer the question the way they want, then you might as well be the worst person around. You can't just mess up. You have to do what they want or it doesn't work and I'm tired of always doing the thing that doesn't work. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 02:57 am UTC (link)
	why does it matter to you so much? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:00 am UTC (link)
	I want to be someone that's needed. Not someone who's... who's disposable. And that's all I am right now. It's all I've been for a very long time. I can't even offer my help on here without it being pointed out to me that I can't do it. So if I can't do it, why even try? So what am I doing? Just... just wasting space? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 03:02 am UTC (link)
	[a laugh] i hardly think you have any idea what being truly disposable is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:19 am UTC (link)
	I wasn't aware this was a competition. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 03:20 am UTC (link)
	did i say i knew? come off it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:22 am UTC (link)
	You imply that I don't know. That's enough. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 03:23 am UTC (link)
	touchy, aren't we? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:23 am UTC (link)
	Tired. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 03:24 am UTC (link)
	rest. you don't owe anyone a thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:26 am UTC (link)
	I owe everyone everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 03:28 am UTC (link)
	only if you feel that way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	roomsanon 2014-05-14 03:33 am UTC (link)
	I do. I didn't used to be this way, you know. I was the person people relied on. I was the one who helped out. Who was dependable. And now... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chenille 2014-05-14 03:41 am UTC (link)
	that's the reason you still feel accountable. a word of advice, for your peace of mind -- clean up the shit you've lied in before you tend to others' messes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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chenille, 2014-05-14 03:45 am UTC

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