✞ Angel ✞ (angelusdomini) wrote in ridgewayresort, @ 2010-05-06 23:25:00 |
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Entry tags: | angel, buffy summers |
Who: Buffy Summers and Angel
What: Discussions
When: After this.
Where: The Docks
Rating: PG
Status: Incomplete
Angel watched the small dinghy bobbing up and down in the murky mirror that trapped a reflection of the night sky. To become human... It was the one thing that he had ever wanted, even when he'd secluded himself in his own small corner of a world that held nothing of fathomable interest for him.
This wasn't the first time that he had come across a cure--or a potential cure, to be more precise. It was a logical assumption that Tesla, too, was from another dimension and that the engineer's theories, as brilliant and flawless as they would doubtless be, may not work as expected on a different specie of vampire. Still, it was a shot. The Mohra demon blood was a much more definitive cure and one which he had rejected at the time because he believed, perhaps naively, that he still had a role to play. It was unthinkable for him to accept a reward that he had not earnt nor was deserving of, not when he had so much left to atone for. A happy accident, was all it was. He'd tried hard to forget that day, so much so that on some days, he was sure that it really had been but a dream.
But it wasn't. It had been real. Still might be real sooner than he could ever have expected. Everything had changed and knowing what he now knew, knowing the kind of future that he had been fighting to protect all this time... The answer seemed like a no brainer. If he was human, he would not have a pivotal role to play in the Apocalypse. Wolfram & Hart would have no reason to interject in his life at every turn. It was doubtful that they would want to install a human as the firm's C.E.O. No super powers. No great big destiny, good or nefarious. No champion and, just maybe, no more killer visions for Cordelia. Cordy. He recognised how important this was to her, but how could he explain that the destiny that he had been working his way towards was a sham? That he was nobody's champion? He knew she would try to convince him otherwise, but maybe he was tired of fighting only to find that he had ended up rooting for the wrong side somewhere along the way. If that was his destiny, then the Powers (if they were indeed on the side of the good) would be better of finding themselves another champion. Maybe he would be better off having no destiny at all. It was a clean, simple solution to all their future problems.
So what was holding him back? Enough to keep him conflicted. Regardless of what he decided, if his destiny was intertwined with Buffy's, then she had a right to have a say, or at least to know what he intended.