rook {isn't grumpy} (grumbled) wrote in rewritethreads, @ 2020-10-08 14:38:00 |
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Entry tags: | character: alastair selwyn, character: benjy fenwick, player: erin, player: lily |
WHO: Benjy Fenwick and Alastair Selwyn
WHAT: Definitely Not Feeling Things
WHEN: Wednesday, Oct 7; evening
WHERE: Alastair's
RATING|STATUS: TBD | In progress
Meeting up with Alastair under any circumstances was not a good idea--and while Benjy was well aware of that, he still found himself outside his ex's door. A door he didn't know anymore. He couldn't tell if that upset him more or if he was already upset too much to be able to feel it. His expression was hard and closed off as he knocked, not because he was angry or closed off with Alastair (as he would normally be), but out of self-preservation. He'd been putting off a real breakdown for days, keeping himself busy and trying to be numb as he made arrangements and calls to family, but each day was harder than the day before, the more mornings he woke up in their home without them. It was hard even being around his brother, who he knew needed him, because it made his walls weak. This...whatever it was, would also probably make his walls weak, but Benjy was already vulnerable, and that was why he made this poor decision. But he was hoping that alcohol would make it easier, make it so he wouldn't feel anything. That was what everyone said, right? |