Pardon me while I actually use this as a journal, which I think are typically meant for venting. Please feel free to skip this page if it publishes before I can try to tear it out.
By my count, Beth would be turning one today back home and I'm missing it.
Ian's probably missing it, too, because he's probably too busy planning a funeral to have time for a birthday party she won't even remember. One douchebag named Crowley and an indeterminate number of clinical specialists completely lacking scruples later and I'm missing my daughter's first birthday. And every subsequent one. The actual
worst thing about this place is that it's
it for me. This is the last hurrah. That's pathetic and piteous, but it is what it is. I know a lot of people want to get out of here so bad and I can't even empathize with that, because all I'd be going back to is a hole six feet in the ground that I'm sure will inevitably be dug up, salted, and burned just to be on the safe side, because
that's the kind of life I stumbled into, apparently, when I wasn't paying attention.
I need a fucking drink.
-S.D.