Justin almost understood plenty of things about Brian. How Brian “secretly” watched Justin sleep, or called him Sonny Boy. How sometimes, when Brian ran his fingers through Justin’s hair, he’d stop to feel his scar – still uneven and rough from how quickly they'd closed the wound.
Swoons … swooning… faints away.
Justin knew, somehow, that it all meant Brian loved him, wanted to protect him.
But it wasn’t until the night Justin lay awake, his ear pressed to Brian’s heart, that he realized all of those things were Brian’s mental checklist: Breathing (Check). Safe (Check). Put back together (Check). Heart beating (Check). Really there (Check).
Having this warm, wonderful feeling right now. Teary eyed (Check). Love it (Check). Sending you lots of hugz (Check). Thank you wonderful fic. Sorry I quoted the whole thing.