vamphile (vamphile) wrote in qaf_drabbles, @ 2007-09-19 18:55:00 |
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Entry tags: | author: vamphile, challenge #30: 216-220 |
Home, Two 220 Drabbles
Title: Home?
Author: Vamphile
Timeline: 220
Condom(s): Justin
Brian
I hear the door open. 2:59 am. I can breathe again. I consider feigning sleep but when he hesitates, unsure as to whether he’s welcome in our bed. I pull the duvet back in an invitation. It’s a small gesture. There was a time when it would have been enough. I don’t know if anything would be at this point. He crawls in and lies down next to me. I close my eyes and stroke his arm. Around this time his body will usually relax into mine. Tonight it doesn’t. I knew love was going to hurt. I wasn’t wrong.
Justin
I stare off, unable to sleep, unable to think. His hand stroking my arm should be comforting, it isn’t. I close my eyes for a second but that makes it worse, not better. I stare at the wall and count color shades the way others might count sheep. I’m not trying to sleep. I’m trying not to think. Ethan says he loves me. I feel Brian’s breathing even out, his arm still draped over mine. I don’t move. I’m not uncomfortable, his presence can be disturbingly reassuring. He told me that he didn’t believe in love… I wish I didn’t.