Reading this asylum's user info I'm not sure if this is the right place to post this, but since it's kinda important for my future enjoyment of QaF fan fics and my future attempts at writing one, I hope it's ok.
There's an ongoing discussion on the wonder (or not) that is Brandon on the other thread *points down*, and I thought perhaps I should re-watch that Brandon arc to refresh my memory of him. So I emotionally detached myself from the show and got ready to watch. Somehow I ended up watching 513 instead (yes I'm easily distracted).
I've never read anything Cowlip had to say about the ending of Qaf, nor have I read what the other writers had to say about it. I knew these interviews/letters existed, but I read that they weren't anything really good about BrianXJustin's relationship, and since I never stumbled on them I thought it might as well that I don't read them. I believe what they wanted or tried to say is irrelevant to begin with, what matters is what's on the show. I still believe so.
Now after re-watching as a detached viewer, however, I have a good idea of what Cowlip might have said (or not. How am I supposed to know without actually reading it). But there are things in the episode that I overlooked before, and it conveys things the writers must have intended to convey. It's all there. It all has ended, wrapped up and done. Nobody is really sad or broken at the end of the show. They are all okay one way or the other, and they will survive. I'm still detached, so I'm not really feeling anything now, but I think I'll need a hug soon. Although I always thought the ending was okay, for a long time whenever I rewatched 513 (usually only part of it) I still felt unsettled, that there's something unsettling in it. Now it has stopped.
But I'm not really here to share my newly found perception. This post would be really long if that's the case, and it's nothing you haven't read before; it's just another version of the ending. I want to ask about Justin's line (I'm pretty sure it's something you've been asked about before as well, but considering the age of this fandom, can I really avoid that?).
In Brian doesn't do Cuddle scene, did Justin really say:
- "I don't want you to do what makes you happy, not me."
Now of course contextually he wouldn't really say that. But why does it really sound that way to me? Any ideas? Accent? Blunder? Choking up? Bad, bad hearing?
Because all the lines ever said is important for my future fics. Thank you for reading and hopefully answering.