passing_through (passing_through) wrote in qaf_coffeeclub, @ 2008-04-06 21:55:00 |
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Riding In The Car With Brian
Because sometimes late is better than never :D
I have a special relationship with my car. It has nothing to do with the make, model, or color. I’ve had this relationship with every single car I’ve had in my life, which is up to eight so far. So, if it’s not the “kind” of car that makes it special, then what is it?
It’s what my car gives me. A haven. A small, encapsulated world where I feel comfortable, safe and most importantly, free.
That’s why when I was watching qaf I started to notice something happening between Brian and Justin. When they’re in, or in many instances, even near a car, Brian has a tendency to drop his guard and become more emotionally accessible to Justin. I’ve seen him be curious, playful, brutally honest, and even lost. And in one heart stopping moment, laid completely bare and open before Justin.
Why is this? Could it be because in that moment, when it's just the two of them, Brian feels safe? Or maybe when it’s (usually) just the two of them, he doesn’t have to worry about what other people will think? Because we all know that he does care what people think, even when he says different.
Beginning of 101
It all begins with a boring blow job and jacket that he tosses into the jeep.
He looks up
and what does he see? A blond vision in denim and plaid.
And so it began.
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Our second glimpse of Brian’s inability to avoid Justin’s auto-induced charms comes in this scene. He's stoned, so it'd be easy to blame his unusual behavior on the drugs. And what makes this so unusual? In all five seasons, you never, ever see him give anyone else but Justin a blow job. And the only one he ever mentions is the one in "the most famous shower scene since Psycho". A little bit of Brian Kinney history that I doubt he's ever shared with another trick, before or after Justin.
And if it weren't for that damn dog, Justin might not have had to wait until he got to the loft to experience it.
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Which leads us to the morning after and Justin's introduction to Brian Kinney's "no repeats" policy.
I love this scene because Brian’s expression is so gentle in this moment. He knows how strongly Justin’s reacting to their night together and instead of blowing him off he lets him down easy.
"You can see me in your dreams."
Like Justin's going to settle for that.
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Okay, so they're not IN the car, but Brian's touching this one and yeah, he's being a jerk. But, he tells Justin how it is, how HE is, so there's no mistaking what they had.
Brian: I don't believe in love. I believe in fucking. It's honest, it's efficient. You get in and out with the maximum of pleasure, and minimum of bullshit. Love is something that straight people tell themselves they're in, so they can get laid. And they end up hurting each other, because it was all based on lies to begin with. If that's what you want, then go find yourself a pretty little girl... and get married.
That's not what Justin wants, but at this point, Brian doesn't know that Justin's willing to go after what he wants. And what he wants is Brian, not a pretty little girl, because pretty little girls don't have dicks. Which we soon find out that Justin likes. A lot.
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116
In an unguarded moment...
Brian: You're going out of state?
Justin: Why? Do you give a shit?
Brian: It's just the first I've heard of it, that's all.
Justin: You do. You give a shit! You give a shit! You so care about me! You love me so much!
Brian: Get out!
Justin: Brian Kinney gives a shit!
Brian: Fuck you.
Of course he gives a shit. He just wasn't ready to admit it.
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Prom 122
Leaning against the Jeep...
Brian: We gave them a prom they'll never forget.
Justin: Me, neither. It's the best night of my life.
Brian: Even if it was ridiculously romantic
I don't have the words to describe the beauty of this moment, so I'll let the pictures speak for themselves.
One last look.
And we'll leave it at that.
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Which brings us to 408, my favorite car moment. Brian returns from" Ibizia"
Brian: Want a lift?
Justin: That's okay. I'm sure you have plenty more important things to do.
Brian: By the way I...I missed you.
Justin: Prove it.
Justin: You're gonna have to do better than that.
Justin's till not convinced.
So he makes Brian work for it.
Now Justin believes him.
Brian casually asks Justin if he'll see him tonight, only to have Justin let him know that he might not be in town. Something about Hollywood.
I think Brian really did miss Justin.
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Which brings us to the part of the picspam that hurts my heart the most, 510.
Justin, out on a wet evening, hanging posters for the Stop Prop 14 Benefit.
The look on Brian's face in this scene just kills me.
And out of the corner of his eye Brian catches a glimpse of Justin.
Justin sees Brian and walks over to the car.
They talk about the benefit and Brian tells Justin he's going to Sydney for Mardi Gras.
Brian tells Justin to take care of himself
and drives off.
(This is the part of the picspam that I have to suppress the urge to smack Brian upside the head. Like Debbie, only harder.)
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510
In the midst of chaos, debris, smoke and horror. Surrounded by police cars and ambulances and fire trucks and news vans, we see Brian as we've never seen him before.
*caps courtesy of kwaf, reminiscent designs, queer eyes and qafclulb
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So what do you think? Is Brian different with Justin when they're around four wheels and what sits on top of them?
I know of at least three others that I've missed. Now it's your turn. Tell me what your favorite car moments are.