losing everything, but not everything. taking off a silk scarf. dancing at pride. buying a computer just so he could draw again. offering him a job, and him not taking it to find his own way. letting him go...and letting him come back. never playing violin music again. a duffle bag full of fucking underwear. standing up to parents who ram your jeep. letting him have control, even though control is important to you. taking opportunities of a lifetime(and still coming back). giving him the strength and courage to finally be okay with loving someone(other than himself). paying tuition. stopping mayors. saving your friends asses, repeatedly. finding him after a bomb. saying i love you. never meaning anything more. strength to go to rehab. tuna noodle cassorole. dancing with him instead of two tricks. giving him the best night of his life. knowing why debbie calls him sunshine. nuzzling. sniffing each other. reclaiming your playground, together. cha-cha dances.