notreallyme10 (notreallyme10) wrote in qaf_challenges, @ 2009-07-12 16:59:00 |
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33. Drabbles: It's Not Lying If They Make You Lie
Title: It’s Not Lying If They Make You Lie
Author: itwaslovetome
Theme: Opposites
Notes: Drabble x2. Seasons 1 and 5. Opposites are Truth & Lies, or any synonyms of those. :) Brian’s POV. Thanks grayskyblue for your help with all of these.
If I’m being honest, showing up at Justin’s prom wasn’t for me, but for him. Sure, it was nice to know I could still turn heads, but it was nicer to see his Sunshine Smile when we turned them. It was nice to know I still deserved to feel something that good, but nicer to show him that he deserved the truth.
But in the end, what was I left with? Cruel irony? A deep, heavy emptiness? Proof that I should never let the “heartless bastard” shell fall away again? After all, it’s not lying if they make you lie.
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It’s not lying if they make you lie. I could have been honest and told him he was killing me when he left. I could have told him not to go. But the last time I’d truly opened that door, I’d ended up watching him distantly through a hospital room window anyway.
This time, I’d created the distance preemptively. And the space between the entrance to Babylon and wherever the fuck he was inside had never been so huge.
That hospital held too many memories, and one glaring truth: There were no guarantees. Bomb or no bomb, I loved him.