brian is finally differentiating between the absurd and what's important:
"I think of Brandon lying naked on my bed, offering himself up to me, and I remember thinking I hadn't wanted to fuck anyone less in my entire life."
"Then I think of Justin lying naked in my bed. His pale, soft skin. I've fucked him a thousand times and it's never gotten old. Just his smell, his flirty blink, can make me hard in seconds."