Kate’s nerves had gone so wild that it was getting hard for her to talk without rambling about something else and distracting herself. Jason’s pyjama pants proved that, but luckily she managed to push herself on track. Kate needed to stay on track, and she needed to tell Jason how she felt. Now that she was standing there talking to him there was no turning back. She had broken up with Jamie, told Jamie that she was still in love with Jason and now she just needed to tell Jason. For the second time in her life she was unsure of how Jason would react to what she had to say, and she honestly couldn’t blame him if he didn’t love her anymore. She had dumped him over a year ago, she was the one who gave up on them and he had plenty of time to get over her and move on. Kate had thought she moved on when she found Jamie, but obviously it was just something that she had talked herself into and couldn’t realize that until she saw Jason again.
If Kate wasn’t so distracted by what she was going to say she would of noticed the worried look that come across Jason’s face and reassured him that she was fine. But she didn’t and just kept on pacing for a bit trying to calm herself down. “No. I am not OK,” Kate finally said, shaking her head but not being able to look at Jason right away. Kate definitely wasn’t OK, she was confused, scared, nervous and even more scared. She didn’t know what she was going to do if Jason didn’t love her anymore. Well, she would probably crawl into a little hole and never come out again. That is what she would do.
“All right,” Kate said, stopping herself in front of Jason and pacing her hands on his shoulders for a second to keep herself still. Her hands then went to her sides but soon enough Kate was picking at her nails while she looked at Jason. “I broke up with Jamie because I am still in love with you, Jason,” Kate said, the words coming out a bit easier for her once she actually got the sentence formed. “I have been in love with you since the island, and after we broke up I just talked myself into thinking I could get over you because I didn’t think I would ever be able to see you again, but that just wasn’t possible for me and I came to realize that when you came to Providence.” Once she had gotten that all out Kate still there for a second and then nodded her head quickly. “Yeah. There.”