PhyreBards

So...priorities. I pride myself in being able to evenly spread my time. I turn in assignments on time. I am prepared for all of my teaching endeavors. I run nearly every day. I call my mom three times a week (sometimes a day depending on my week haha). But...I just keep forgetting about his precious phyrebards. I don't know if it's because I don't write it in my handydandy planner, or if it is not regarded as a "formal assignment" (although I realize that it is). I guess since we find ourselves having such in depth conversations in class, most of my questions get answered there.

Anyway...enough excuses.

I've heard my voice on answering machines, and homevideos...but this video critique was the first time that I had to listen to it for nearly an hour. I'm squeaky, and laugh at not very funny things. Do my students find me as annoying as I find me? God, I hope not. Hopefully it is one of those "you are your worst critic" type things. But at the same time, I seemed so comfortable with the class (even though I glanced at the camera from time to time, making the video hilarious). So watching the video confirmed 2 things for me: 1. my voice is annoying and 2. I love teaching.

So, my last day in my placement this semester was Friday and I felt slightly awkward leaving for the last time. At that point, I didn't for sure know where my placement for student teaching was so it was kind of like, "Thanks for all your help, maybe I'll see you next semester, maybe not?" It was a wierd feeling to know that these students who I had gotten somewhat connected to, I would probably never see again. It made me feel like some sort of liar in a way that I was just using them for these 5 lessons. This feeling makes me really excited about the kind of influence that I could have when I am actually a "teacher." I still don't feel like I am ready to student teach. I thought by the end of this semester, I would be like, yes, I can do this, but I am still unsure. At the same time, I feel that student teaching will be a challenge that will help me grow. You know the phrase, "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." I think this is what student teaching will be like for me. I know it will challenge me. I know I will sometimes feel like I can't do it anymore. But, I am at the point where I think I am ready to face the challenge in hopes that my passion for teaching and the students will be enough to help me push through and be good. I think it is good that I know I still have a lot to learn and I think that all that I have left to learn are things that I need to teach myself through experience. I hope that when I leave my student teaching classroom that it will be less awkward than leaving my methods placement classroom because I know I will leave thinking I did the best I could and could follow through on ideas and relationships with the students.