Title: The Werewolf Bard – Part 5 Author: nimrod_9 Rating: R Pairing: Remus/Severus Kink(s): dub-con/kissing Challenge: Lusty Month of May 2009 Word count: 670
Warning: Unbeta'd
Author’s note: No, Remus does not molest Severus in his hospital bed.
Remus reached over and squeezed Severus’ hand then put his head back and sighed heavily. “I didn’t think I was quite so brilliant a few days later, when I’d endangered you, Harry, Ron, and Hermione.” He pinched the bridge of his nose between his thumb and forefinger. “It was a painfully illuminating twenty-four hours, and when it was over I was without you and without a job, again.”
“I dragged myself to Albus’ office as soon as breakfast was over that day. I had had time to shower and dress by then. Sleep had been impossible. I was angry, so very angry. I was actually amazed at the number of people I was angry with: you, me, Sirius, Peter, and Harry. Naturally, Harry was the only one I shouldn’t have been angry with, although I know you would disagree with that on principal alone.”
“I don’t imagine you want to know why I was angry with Sirius.” He shrugged expressively and continued. “It would probably keep you unconscious an extra three days. Peter, well, with Peter the reasons were obvious. You, I was so angry with you. You couldn’t or wouldn’t trust me, which I could understand in my head, but my heart, my heart was an entirely different matter. Naturally, less then a half of an hour later I violated any tiny bit of trust you might have had in the most unthinkable way. I changed in to an uncontrolled werewolf.”
“After I’d spoken with Albus and resigned I went to look for you. You had made yourself easy enough to find; you never said, but I imagine you looked forward to a confrontation. I closed your office door and warded it and then growled ‘why’. It was supposed to sound ferocious, it sounded more wounded than I would have liked. You answered ‘Because you are a dangerous, disgusting beast’. I wanted to scream that I wasn’t, but I was..am..can be.”
“I said ‘The entire Wizarding world did not need to know’. You screwed your lips into a sneer and said ‘Oh, yes they most certainly do. They need to know about both you and your beautiful boyfriend. That’s how animals pick their mates you know, beauty over substance”. I can hear myself saying ‘Stop it, Severus.’ And you continued. I said ‘Shut up, Severus.’ And you had to go on one more time. I needed you to stop saying all those hurtful things; I needed to tell you some truths, but you just wouldn’t stop. Then, I did the only thing I could think of to get you to stop. I grabbed you, pulled you to me and kissed you.”
“They weren’t kisses of love and kindness, they were brutal kisses to prove domination or take some control. Our teeth clanked. You bit my tongue. I bit your lip; the taste of blood was metallic and heady in my mouth. I wanted to devour you, right there in your office. My blood boiled as you tried to push me away. I pulled you tighter, kissed you harder. The kisses became more vicious, deeper. I couldn’t stop; I couldn’t breathe. I don’t even imagine you could either. Finally, I began to come to my senses, and released you slightly.” Remus chuckled dryly.
“You took advantage and kneed me in the groin. When I looked up, I tried to apologize. You straightened your robes and pointed toward the door. You didn’t say any thing as ‘I’m sorry’ repeatedly rolled out of my mouth. Once, I’d stumbled out of your office; I stood, retching in the hallway. Fortunately, I know a few good cleaning spells.’ Remus stroked the pale fingers he held.
“It took me ninety-seven letters to get you to acknowledge my apology. I didn’t know if you had accepted it, but at least I know you had received them. Your letter said:
Lupin,
Please cease and desist. There is no further need for you to burden the postal system with your banalities.