elfflame (elfflame) wrote in pervy_werewolf, @ 2009-05-01 18:04:00 |
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Entry tags: | #lmom 2009, author: elfflame, kink: kissing, remus/lily |
LMOM #1: Musing on Chances - Remus/Lily, PG13
Title: Musing on Chances
Author: elfflame
Rating: PG13
Pairing: Remus/Lily
Kink(s) : First kiss?
Challenge: Lusty Month of May 2009
Word count: 538
A/N: Despite the fact that I’ve been watching since LMOM began, this is the first year I’ve participated. We’ll see how long I can keep this up, hm? The story overall is dedicated to one of my favorite Severus-peoples, snapesgirl, for her birthday, which was yesterday, and the fact that she seems to have finally properly ignited my Snupin muse. :) And yes, I do have some actual smut planned. Promise. Thank you to wolfish_cat for looking this over. The pieces I'm writing will be at least somewhat interlinked, even if they don't always seem like it.
If James knew Remus was thinking this way about Lily, it would cause a great deal of trouble. He knows that James would likely never speak to him again. Or worse. But Remus also thinks his friend has no chance with Lily. She hates him too much, after all. At least James has other options. Girls are always swooning over him because he is a Quidditch star. He can take his pick.
The same isn’t true for Remus, though. After all, who is going to want a shy young man who’s already far too good at keeping secrets? He’s not flashy the way James and Sirius are. Lily might be his only chance.
Then there’s the fact that no other girls seem to have Lily’s fire, or the friendly smile she always gives Remus when they talk. He’s almost as comfortable with her as he is with James or Sirius, or even Peter.
He can’t think of another girl he’d even consider getting this close to. Girls seem to make even less sense to him than they do to other guys his age. They are all just too silly, and don’t draw his interest at all. Older boys’ talk of breasts and kisses and other things don’t intrigue him the way they do his friends. Most of the time, he keeps quiet while the others talk about the things they can’t wait to try when they finally have a girlfriend.
Then again, he’s always had trouble getting close to people. If James and Sirius hadn’t been so outgoing in first year, he doubted he’d even have become friends with them. But James and Sirius had never let something as simple as someone else’s reticence stop them. Even when it came to ferreting out secrets they were better off not knowing.
Still, after several months of sharing Prefect duties with Lily, they’ve grown close, and sometimes after doing rounds, they spend a few minutes talking before going back up to the common room together. And one evening, as they talk, Lily takes his hand. It takes Remus a few moments to process that, but he doesn’t pull away, either. He doesn’t want to. Soon one thing leads to another, and suddenly Lily’s very close, and Remus can feel his heartbeat speeding up as she tilts her face up to meet his.
She is so soft as she presses against him, and there is a fleeting thought in Remus’s mind that it feels wrong. Not Lily, of course. Her lips are gentle and sweet against his, tasting of strawberries, her perfume filling the air around them. But he can’t help feeling that there should be more to a kiss than this. That it should feel more…interesting. That a body pressing against his should be somehow…firmer. That his breathing, which has slowed, should still be making him feel dizzy to the point where he has to hold onto Lily tighter to stay upright.
He’s quick to tamp down the image of black hair and sparkling grey eyes that come to mind when he tries to figure out what would feel right later that night when he’s laying in his bed, hangings closed.
He has to be normal in something, doesn’t he?