LMOM #26: I Hate You [Remus/Severus, NC-17] Title: I Hate You Rating: NC-17 Word Count: 621 Pairing: Remus/Severus Kinks: hate sex, frottage, breath play Challenge: Lusty Month of May (#26)
Remus drank down the acrid Wolfsbane Potion and handed the goblet back to Severus. "Thank you," he said with a wince. Severus shook his head and didn't bother to reply. He turned on his heal and begin to cross the room. He was halted by a tentative voice. "Severus... why do you hate me?"
Severus froze, hand gripping the door knob tightly. "Why?" he growled. "Why? You have to ask why?" He spun on his heal, inky eyes fiery. The goblet hit the floor with a metallic cling as Severus wrapped his fingers around the lapels of Remus' robes, jerked him out of his chair, and pushed him up against the wall. "They attacked me two or three on one on an almost daily basis. I held my own, yeah... but I was just a fucking kid. And you... what did you do? Nothing. Not a single fucking word to stop them."
Remus winced at the pain of the stone wall against his back. "I... couldn't have stopped them. I talked to them... I did!"
"Liar!" Severus snarled. He leaned in his hot breath inches from Remus' face. "Why would you want them to stop? You enjoyed it!"
"I... I didn't! And... Lily... Lily tried to get them to stop. If she couldn't, what makes you think I could?" Remus whispered.
Severus' hand moved to Remus' neck, squeezing down. Remus gasped for air, clawing at the hand. "Don't you dare say her name. You aren't worthy!" He inhaled sharply before loosening his grip, just enough for Remus to breathe. "I hate you... I fucking hate you. You took everything from me... EVERYTHING!"
Remus shook his head. "I didn't...."
"You did. You didn't stop Potter and his cretins and you could have. They would have listened to you. I lost Lily's friendship because of them. I loved her. I loved her, and she walked out of my life... all because you didn't stop them!"
"Lily... she loved you, Severus. She said..."
"Shut UP! She didn't love me like I loved her. She wanted... she wanted what she had with Potter. I couldn't give her that. I loved her too much. I couldn't give her sex. I don't... I had other darker desires."
"But... but..."
Severus leaned forward, pressing his lips to Remus' and Remus forgot to breathe. "You took everything from me. My heart... my soul... you took my courage when I saw you transform. You took my life. You could have saved me. When Lily shoved me to the side. You could have saved me... become my friend... saved me from myself. But you didn't. You didn't care. You didn't want to notice."
"Severus..." Remus gasped, but he couldn't find the words as Severus claimed his lips in a rough and passionate kiss. Severus' hardness pressed against him and they were rubbing against each other frantically. Their hard cocks pressed against rough fabric. Severus' hand pressed against his throat harder as the orgasm tore through the potions master. For a brief moment his hard face relaxed. He pulled away suddenly, leaving Remus to slide to the floor, emptying into his own pants. Remus let out a whimper.
"I hate you, Remus, because I love you," he whispered.
The door slammed shut a second later, the goblet rolling against the stone floor. "I hate myself, too," Remus whimpered to the silent room. He closed his eyes trying to block out the tears gathering in his eyes. He laid there until the change overtook him, tearing through his body as roughly as Severus' declaration as love. For once in his life... he wished the potion hadn't worked.