love blanche! q grew up in nj and i'm envisioning someone he was friends with in spite of his socially awkward nature growing up. either shared in his love of fantasy or encouraged it even if they didn't. would've been there for him throughout his struggles. but basically he would've been desperately in love with her and equally desperate for her to never have found out. after all these years, he's kind of resigned himself to understanding it's never going to happen, but i think part of him will still always feel that.