it's part of her downfall really! she gets into her own head wayyy too much and over-worries and throws herself into panic attacks and/or depression periods and half the time she doesn't even need to do that. but on the outside it's FUN FUN FUN smoking and drinking and partying time!! she refuses to admit or accept how fucked up she really is. so when rufus was talking about how similar these two ladies are she was like well then maybe i can get a friend out of this who 'gets it!'