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Tweak says, "Like a brother? "

Sean Allen (eternalearth) wrote in paxletalelogs,
@ 2011-10-17 22:25:00

Entry tags:

geb, nyx

It had me low, and it had me down
Who: Nyx and Geb
What: Sean goes out to a jazz club where he meets Cat.
Where: A jazz club
When: October 15
Warnings: None yet

Sean's body and breath was still being constricted here and there, and boy did it like to appear at just the wrong time. He had fallen out of many a difficult position in his advanced classes and had to break meditation. Luckily, he was finding ways around it, and tried to only do a lot of poses in the beginner class or when really necessary. He was grateful that it hadn't been costing him his job so far, and he simply prayed that it was nothing serious, especially since he didn't exactly have medical insurance. The body constricted he could easily excuse as restless leg or too much exercise over too short a time frame, but when you threw in shortness of breath, Sean was clueless. Also, thankfully Karin was a big help and extremely understanding and calming. Sean wasn't used to someone having to calm him, not since college, which felt like another life, but it felt refreshing.

Having a bit of a lazy evening, Sean was sitting in his living-room smoking a joint, watching television, Law and Order SUV to be exact. He took a long drag from the joint, engrossed in a particular episode with Jeremy Irons. When the show went to commercial, Sean got up and headed to the kitchen, joint hanging out of his mouth. He went into the lower cabinet and reached for a box of cereal, heart shaped Kashi, shaking the nearly empty box. However, as he shook the box, disappointed in how little was left, something else began to shake, the whole apartment. Sean started to head to a doorframe for saftey, but as he did so he passed by a window. Something caught the corner of his eye, something so simple, but it made him stop and head over to the window. Out there in the street was a woman chattering away on her cell phone like nothing was happening, while Sean was shaking so badly he felt he was about to throw up. When he looked further, there were many people outside, simply going about their business.

Sean calmly put out his joint in the kitchen sink and tried to remember exactly how much he had. His first instinct was to run to Karin, but when he got a good whif of himself, he remembered how much he indeed did smoke, and something told him that Karin wouldn't be too happy. Besides, it really wasn't anything to freak out over was it? There was absolutely no reason to worry Karin further, HE was the one that was supposed to be supportive, not the other way around. Maybe now was a good time to go out to that Jazz club he had wanted to go to. One or two drinks certainly couldn't hurt, it would definitely help.

So Sean made a quick clothing change and put on a pair of blue jeans, a grey tee-shirt and a black blazer as an afterthought. After all, putting on pants that buttoned and zipped was dressing up for Sean.

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eternalearth
2011-11-06 10:33 pm UTC (link)

"Yes, that is a bit of a catch 22 I suppose. When you find what you're meant to do, you'll know, and you'll wonder how it took you so long to find it." Sean clearly spoke from experience on that one. He finished his beer, setting it down and relaxing a bit into his chair. "I don't know about people around here, but I'm very honest. If people don't like me for who I am, then I don't want to be friends with them anyway, that's how I look at it. The truth is that my parents wanted me to be a Christian, an accountant, and married to a beautiful woman with 2 children by now. In college I found Buddhism, yoga, meditation, pot, and a man named Mark. I now teach yoga and meditation, am a devout buddhist, and bi-sexual. Needless to say, I haven't talked to my parents in quite some time."

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full_of_stars
2011-11-08 08:09 pm UTC (link)

Cat nodded.

"That is unfortunate," she said. "I'm sorry to hear it. Though living the life one truly wants has its costs, I imagine, no?" She took another sip of her drink.

"There are times when those who love us simply can't accept what we are, rather than what they'd rather we be. For my part, I've simply lived so far from them for so long, they assume I'm doing reasonably well enough." She smiled.

"So is that what you recommend? Spirit and sexual awakening?" She gave him a half-grin as the waitress approached.

"Another of the same, please," she asked the girl, who then turned to Sean.

"Would you like another Blue Moon, sir?"

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eternalearth
2011-11-09 12:01 am UTC (link)

"Oh it has definite costs, I definitely have to save every penny possible." Of course he was not really very good at that. Here he was at a jazz club after having smoked a decent amount of money in pot, drinking blue moon. Saving wasn't something he enjoyed or something he was particularly good at. Sean laughed and shrugged. "Hey, it worked for me. I don't think there's anything wrong with it, especially the sexual awakening."

Sean nodded to the waitress, why not have ONE more beer? The night was still young.

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full_of_stars
2011-11-14 12:12 am UTC (link)

With a genuine smile, she laughed with him.

"That doesn't sound like such a bad deal," she told him, taking another sip of her drink. "I have to respect someone who follows his passions."

She paused thoughtfully for a moment, wondering what sort of awakening she might find in California. Everything seemed old, like she'd done it a thousand times, but since she'd come here, met people like Sean, like Charlie, like Elias, things had started to seem different somehow. Like there might be another way.

Of course, she had no idea what that was.

"Well, yogi. I'm not certain if that's exactly the path for me, but I'd hate to be judgmental. Though I don't enjoy getting up early, by any stretch. What would you recommend for me?"

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eternalearth
2011-11-14 04:59 am UTC (link)

Even if he wasn't high and unable to frown, Sean would be smiling, because her smile was clearly infectious. As he sat here enjoying her company, he realized suddenly, that he was very close to passing some sort of unspoken line with Karin, he was enjoying this woman's company a bit TOO much perhaps.

As his beer arrived he held it up to her with a soft smile. "If you want a serious answer, I'd tell you to take some time and think about what it is you really want to do in life, no matter how difficult it may seem to achieve, and go for it."

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	full_of_stars 2011-11-28 04:01 pm UTC (link)
	Tapping her glass to his, Cat shook her head. "Fair enough," she said with a slight smile. "In the meantime, I suppose the only thing to do is have a drink and enjoy the music, hm?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eternalearth 2011-11-28 06:26 pm UTC (link)
	"Yes, it really is the only thing to do. After all, music is the cure of so many ailments." Sean smiled and took a drink from his glass. "Cheers to a new friendship. If you ever need to talk Cat, I'll be around." (Reply to this) (Parent)

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