Jack Landors (robinindahood) wrote in parabolical, @ 2008-10-03 23:01:00 |
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Entry tags: | jack landors, kira ford |
Who:Kira and Jack.
What: he goes to see her, aakwaaard.
when: right after Kira sends the text. Early evening.
where: Isis..
warning: A for angst.
Voices. It seemed they were all he could hear since this started. Somewhere along the way his own had gotten lost until now. The others accusations but he couldn't let them stop him this time. This wasn’t a day he felt like he could even pretend to feel happy. Pretend to play nice with the others on the boards. So he turned away from them. All he felt was numb. Faith was gone, Jo was gone and not in the usual way where they could possibly come back later as so many had before. So many were lost was it even worth the effort? Part of him already knew the answer. Would have been able to answer it before. To save lives it was always worth it. It was why there were rangers. Why he was a ranger.
But right now, he couldn't think clearly. He couldn't even see clearly. The walk to Kira's was hard, and not just because sweat still lined his brow and fever threatened to strike him down. At this moment it was his pride being difficult. As pathetic as he told himself it was, he wanted someone. Someone who he could care for and distract himself, take his mind off things. More than someone, he wanted Kira. He didn't deserve her. But he wanted to see her. Had too. His feet carried him forward until he reached Isis and sent Kira a simple text.
I'm outside.