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michael corner is reluctantly growing up (mlcorner) wrote in pandorarpg,
@ 2012-01-05 17:09:00

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!owl, ^date: november 10 2003, character: ernie macmillan, character: michael corner

Owl to Ernie, sent at 4:52pm

Ernie,

Look mate, I don't really know how everything got so fucked back there, but I want to apologise. I mean, I was not trying to make light of the situation, but it seems as if that's how it looked. I was stressed out, I was worried about Lavender, and I was being told to sit and do nothing and I don't exactly care for that sort of thing. I did it for about six years back in school and realised how bloody stupid I had been when everything started going to shite and basically told myself I wouldn't ever let that happen again. So not doing anything just isn't really something I enjoy, if you remember back in seventh year.

Anyway, that's why I acted the way I did. It had nothing to do with my ego or anything, mate. I wasn't trying to be a hero. Honestly, I was trying to explain to you that Lavender is—well, different. She's difficult to deal with for most people and I was trying to save you the trouble but you didn't want to listen to me. Not to mention you kind of lost your shite in there, which maybe was because you misunderstood what she was saying but either way, it was kind of not the way you talk to someone if you want her to come out of somewhere when she's scared out of her wits. And believe me, Lavender has already been scared, long before she saw Pandora appearing in her fireplace, so having this shite happen certainly didn't help her any. That's why I've been looking after her so closely.

I think I've kind of lost track of what I was trying to say, sorry. Thank you for your help, Ernie. If you hadn't have come it probably would have taken me a long time to get into her flat and if Pandora had been around I guess I'd have been killed so that would not have been that great. I'm sorry that we butted heads so much, it wasn't supposed to go like that. I respect what you do and I'm glad you take your job so seriously, especially when people's safety is on the line. I don't think you really understand how I handle myself under pressure - it is not like you do, apparently, and I suppose it translates into not taking things seriously which isn't really the case. If I wasn't taking any of this seriously I wouldn't be involved at all and I wouldn't be bothered with the DA and trying to figure these memories out and trying to save Lavender—and everyone else, including you, mate.

Speaking of which, I'm working on a sleeping draught for you lot. I'm not sure if it's going to work or not but it might be worth a try. Let me know if you want some. I'm just about done with it.

Michael

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ernsthename
2012-01-06 01:43 am UTC (link)

Michael,
I don't in the least apologize for my actions, but I do accept your apology. More or less. I don't appreciate your efforts to blame me for various aspects of the events though. Barring letting you stay, I don't have any regrets in how I acted. I don't like having to be stern and brisk, but sometimes it's necessary. I was doing my job in the way that I have to do it, which is to make choices that would be least risky.

I can understand that you were worried about Lavender. Most people would be. It may surprise you, but I was worried about her too.

Most, if not all people are different. What YOU need to realize, and you weren't obviously listening to was the fact of the matter. She's not technically the dangerous one there. If anything happened, there would've been a flat with one evil witch and ten trained, competent Hit Wizards who can be rather dangerous if you don't know what is going on. I can tell you that friendly fire does hurt--and is quite probable in a closed situation like that if you are in there and you don't know how to operate with that team.

Anyway, that's why I acted the way I did. When I am at work in such a situation, I am first and foremost responsible for every person's life.

And I had "lost my shite" because ~~I haven't been sleeping in days and~~ I had to deal with people who can't follow simple orders to not interfere for the period where not only their lives but the lives of my team are at stake. If you want someone more appropriate to apologize to, apologize to them--and for some their spouses, and their children--for putting their lives at risk. THAT is what is at stake.

I appreciate the work you and Lavender are doing in DA--I'm grateful for a group that can be trusted and that everyone does what they can to contribute.

I may take you up on the draught if Pandora isn't apprehended soon.

Ernie Macmillan

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mlcorner
2012-01-06 03:48 am UTC (link)

Ernie,

More or less? I suppose I deserve that. It might have been easier for you without me there, y'know, until you tried to get Lavender to leave that room and then she would have refused to do so. That's why I was there. I probably should have kept my mouth shut, though. I've never been very good at that, I suppose. Sorry, if I fucked things up for you. If you need me to tell someone official that I'm an idiot and I ruined things I can do that for you.

I didn't say you weren't worried about her too, mate. It may surprise you, but I don't think you're a robot or something. I know you have feelings and care about your mates.

Yeah, actually if you could give me their information I will apologise to them as well. Although I never did actually come in the flat, which is what you told me to not do. I was staying out of their way on purpose because I didn't feel like getting put in a body bind again, but oh well it's not like I'm dead.

I am grateful for your help at Lavender's. And I'm glad that she didn't stick around and your team didn't have to confront her.

Alright mate. I'll be writing in the journals for the DA with more information about it when it's ready. Should be by tomorrow.

Michael

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ernsthename
2012-01-06 04:56 am UTC (link)

Michael,

~~Don't underestimate us.-- We have our ways.-- But if you feel a need to be important, then so be it.~~ Whatever. It was a poor choice on my behalf, but done the reports, heard the music at the debriefing meeting, and will probably wear it for a few months. Nothing compared to what could've happened. Something I'm grateful for.

I told you not to interfere. Interference includes putting yourself in danger, which you were obviously doinig by distracting us and potentially drawing attention to yourself. But that doesn't matter anymore. Luckily everyone is alright.

Ernie

[Attached: Contact information for the Hit Wizard team that was dispatched that day.]

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