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Justin Finch-Fletchley (basilisk_srvivr) wrote in pandorarpg,
@ 2011-10-17 22:24:00

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!status: complete, ^date: october 30 2003, character: hannah abbott, character: justin finch-fletchley

Rated PG
Who: Justin Finch-Fletchley and Hannah Abbott
What: Talking about the night before
Where: Hannah's flat and the Leaky Cauldron
When: Thursday, October 30, 2003 - 10:45, then noonish

Justin rapped on the door to Hannah's flat for the fifth time in a row, and still there was no answer. He knew she must be gone, but he still felt like he had to try. Only when one of the neighbours stuck their head outside to glare at him did he decide to put a stop to his efforts. He tried to smile at them with his usual winning smile... but for the first time in nearly five years, his heart wasn't in it.

He was still shaken by the... whatever it was he'd seen last night. Vision? Waking nightmare? He had almost given in to the temptation to stay at home, cuddled with his Mum in front of the TV, but though he knew she understood, he couldn't do that to her.

And so he'd gone in search of Hannah and another motherly/sisterly cuddle.

She wasn't there, though, and while Justin had several current and former lovers and friends he could visit with, there were only a handful he could truly feel safe being vulnerable with, and two of the three were likely working today. Then again, Hannah would be working today as well, but Tom was more than used to Justin popping in and taking up her time. He'd tried complaining about it a few times, but every time he did, Justin simply tossed him a few galleons to compensate for her time.

With a nod, Justin decided to head to the Leaky, grab a snack, and wait for Hannah to arrive.

A short chat with Tom, who immediately noticed Justin's off-mood, and a basket of chips later had Justin tucked into a booth, his eye on the door, waiting for Hannah's arrival.

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about_abbott
2011-10-18 04:58 am UTC (link)

She didn't answer his questions, she was certain that the look on her face and the tears were all the answer he needed. She reached over with her other hand and squeezed the one on top of hers.

"What about you?" she simply inquired. She didn't ask whether or not he had been alone at the time because it was none of her business. She was just grateful that Ernie had been there and that he was indeed alive.

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	basilisk_srvivr 2011-10-18 05:15 am UTC (link)
	Justin nodded at her silence, understanding. He shrugged at her question, trying to avoid her prying and seeing if she would forget his promise to tell his own story. "I told you, I didn't have a nightmare. Nightmare-free am I." He tried quirking up his lips into a smirk, but failed miserably. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

about_abbott
2011-10-18 05:24 am UTC (link)

"But something happened," she pressed the issue. From what she had gathered so far most of the incidents, nightmares or not, had involved a link to another person. "Who was it?"

She hated when they did this to her. Both he and Ernie kept the full truth from her thinking they were protecting her when in all honesty they were simply infuriating her. Perhaps if she needed to open up a bit more to Justin to get him to speak up himself. "You've got to promise me you won't tell Ernie. He knows I thought he was dead, but he doesn't know why. I didn't tell him it was my fault."

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	basilisk_srvivr 2011-10-18 05:29 am UTC (link)
	"It doesn't matter what they said in your dream," Justin said emphatically, squeezing her hand too tightly by accident. "It was not your fault." A tear escaped his own eye as he tried to drive that into her. "Not your fault, no matter what they say." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	about_abbott 2011-10-18 05:33 am UTC (link)
	He was so insistent in his reiteration of the statement that Hannah knew it had to do something with his.... Hell, she didn't know what he'd experienced because he wouldn't tell her. "Damn it Justin," she was getting frustrated. She pulled her hands from his. "Will you just bloody tell me!" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

basilisk_srvivr
2011-10-18 05:40 am UTC (link)

Her hands pulling away felt like a slap in the face. He hung his head, unable to look at her. He knew now she wouldn't let it go - he wouldn't either. That was the good thing, and the annoying thing, about good friends like Hannah. That didn't mean it was easy, though.

"I wasn't asleep," he began, his shoulders hunched around his chin. "I had a bloke over, and we were in the middle of what was some pretty fantastic sex, actually... Then I hear this voice, and I look up, and... there's my Dad, standing right next to the bed, asking how could I cause him to die like that. I... I thought I was going crazy, seeing things. I'm still not sure, actually."

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	about_abbott 2011-10-18 05:57 am UTC (link)
	When he spoke, Hannah immediately felt guilty for pulling away. What he'd experienced had been worse than hers. At least in her dream Ernie hadn't blamed her. "You're right," she reached out and took his hands into hers once again. "No matter what was said, it wasn't your fault." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

basilisk_srvivr
2011-10-18 06:02 am UTC (link)

Justin shrugged again, but welcomed her touch when it returned. "It doesn't matter. What matters is... my dad was standing next to my bed. Watching me shag no less!" he added, trying for humour, and at least managing a little bit.

"Bloke took off - probably thought I was off my rocker. I stayed with Mum all night, told her I missed dad. I was afraid to tell her what happened."

He finally looked up to meet Hannah's eyes. "You think... there are others who saw stuff when they were awake too? Like everyone who had nightmares?"

God, he hoped the answer was yes.

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about_abbott
2011-10-18 12:24 pm UTC (link)

Hannah wished her dream had featured her mother again. Those dreams, while still rather painful even seven years later, were feelings she was used to. But this had''t been just a dream, she had felt every bit of the panic and fear. She had watched the events unfold and knew in her core that they were true. Yes, Ernie had been there when she'd awaken. Still something about the reality of it all still nagged at her.

She didn't comment further as he spoke. She could have asked if his father had really been there the way the Death Eater had actually held her back from going to Ernie's aid. Hannah knew by the way he was shaken that whether it was so or not, Justin likely believed that he would have actually been able to touch his father had he reached out.

"I don't know," she answered truthfully. "We were both asleep. Ernie didn't talk much about his. Just that it was a very bad dream, but he was rather shaken. But neither of us went back to sleep. At least not for any decent amount of time." She shuddered involuntarily as she realized that the dream seemed more and more like a vision as Bianca had alluded. The original had scared her, let her feel each and every moment. Even now, when she closed her eyes it was there, that was what made this different the nightmares about her mother. Those usually faded within the hour after she awoke.

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basilisk_srvivr
2011-10-18 02:19 pm UTC (link)

Justin nodded and sighed, not receiving the confirmation he'd hoped to get. Maybe he was the only person who'd seen something while awake. Maybe he was going a little crazy. Honestly, if it was going to happen, this wasn't the way he'd imagined it.

"You know... I don't think I'm going crazy," he said decisively. "If I were, then dad would have been praising my technique, not blaming me for his death."

This time, his smile succeeded because it was genuine.

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about_abbott
2011-10-18 02:32 pm UTC (link)

When his smile crept onto his face, Hannah released Justin's hands. She had been able to forget for a bit this morning when she and Bianca had shopped for dresses. Now, she had to get downstairs as her shift was starting in a little while.

"Why don't you come down stairs with me?" she offered. "Perhaps someone down there can let us know if you were the only on to have a waking vision." Then again perhaps he didn't want to know for sure. "If not, I insist you stay up here. Go lie down and try to get some sleep. I'm sure Ernie will want you here when he comes over tonight."

She hated that today was her late shift. However, she would be able to come back up whenever things were slow and during her quick breaks. She hated even more knowing that if something had indeed gone down throughout their world that it was very likely Ernie would not be coming home tonight.

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	basilisk_srvivr 2011-10-18 06:06 pm UTC (link)
	Justin nodded. "I could do with a room full of people. Not really in the mood to be alone right now, I guess." He stood up and started for the door, then paused and looked over at her. "Who knows, there might be someone fit downstairs looking for a distraction from their nightmares," he added with a wink. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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