Re: Oliver/Tommy
"I'm thinking about it so much because it's not that simple for me. I can't even tell you why, because I don't know. It could be that I can't give you a future because I don't believe in the future. It could be that sex is a distraction. It could be because this isn't a fling. It could be performance anxiety for all I know."
Oliver dropped his head in his hands. "I know, Tommy, and I am trying to change, to converse without faking it, and just be without thinking of the hundreds of ways for us to survive any situation in any room we're in. I'm not on the island and I'm not the Hood here, but we're still in such a dangerous situation that it's like I never left.
"Derek's been here, what? A year? Two years? From what I've seen, it doesn't seem like he's gotten over where he's come from, and that doesn't even count the flashback."
Oliver lowered his hands when Tommy touched his knee. He was frustrated, unhappy, and concerned about being alert to their surroundings and keeping Tommy safe, even as Tommy told him to stop.
The kiss was unexpected, but not unwelcome, and the world stilled for that brief moment. Oliver closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and released it slowly. "Yeah, it's okay." He opened his eyes to look at Tommy. "There's no need to hide it."