"Stop being so reasonable and understanding," TJ complained gruffly, trying not to get emotional just because Travis seemed to know he'd gone through Hell, no matter how much TJ tried to not make this about himself. Not needing to be told twice, he leaned over carefully and pressed his lips to Travis'. "I thought I was losing you," he whispered before swallowing hard. "It was like all the air went out of my world when I saw you go down and I didn't start breathing again until I knew you could. Is that what you want to hear? You scared the hell out of me, Travis, okay? I've never been so scared in my life and I'm afraid to sleep for fear I'll wake up and this, right now, with you alive and joking, will be a cruel dream. But, I can't help you if I'm too scared to function. So, I'm fine and as long as you stay alive, I will be okay, too."
He kissed Travis again, softly. "And you're not ruining my vacation." A ghost of his usual smirk appeared. "If anything, you're giving me a perfectly valid reason to stay in bed with you all day. We can order meals in and I can get the spa to send up some lotions to pamper you with myself. There are places on your body that won't be in pain and I can be your own private masseur."
Chuckling, he let go of Travis' hand for a moment to trace the line of his jaw with a finger. "As long as I feel okay doing it?" He took Travis' hand again. "Haven't you figured out by now that there's almost nothing I won't do to take care of you?"
TJ shifted so he was still lying on his side, but close enough that when he put his head down, he could still brush light kisses on Travis' shoulder. "I can't put you to sleep. I'm not sure how I managed with Derek earlier. And, I'm not sure if I could bring you out of it if you needed help. But, there's a sort of numb detachment with the calm that might help. I'm not really sure how to explain it. But, if it can help you relax enough, maybe you can sleep on your own." As he spoke, he was already 'reaching' for his power, building that calm for both of them and willing Travis' pain to ease, hoping it would be enough to allow his lover to sleep.