Savannah Monroe (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} savannah_monroe) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} omega_reality, |
"Let's move onto the twins. They are much less annoying, because I don't deal with them enough, but the few times that I've spoken with them, they have been condescending and superior. They made it clear that I'm not up to their standards, but you know what they don't understand? They aren't up to my standards, and whatever reason they had to leave, I don't have time for understanding. We don't have time for understanding. And I don't trust them not to stab all of us in the back if they think it benefits them. They really remind me of Clay that way and by 'they' I mean the entire family. I might like Elaine and Bud, but I have no illusion that they are any better than their kids." Margaret was different, but Savannah knew that she'd side with her family, just like she was supposed to and Savannah wouldn't expect any differently. "So I'm not nice, just like I wasn't nice with the Morrows, because they don't want to be part of the team, and if they don't want to, then they aren't part of my team and I have to give them zero chances. In fact, considering that we need to go after G and the rest, I'd prefer it if they left. We might lose Travis, but we also get rid of six people who are dead weight and whom I don't trust, because, Marty, I'm nice, but I'm not nice when someone comes between me and the good of my family. I killed innocent people for that reason. If I'm made peace with that, I'm pretty okay with wishing them gone, if it means a better team that has a better chance to find G. Actually no, that's not even true. I don't mind people who are incompetent if they try to be part of the group; they don't, and if they aren't part of the team, then they are just as much part of the problem as those soldiers. And don't tell me we- I don't say these things, because the Morrows, Abby, Eliot, there are plenty of times when I or others have said the same thing."
She stopped and looked at her husband. "Does that explain why I don't like them? I hope it does, because if I still don't know what the rest means. Are you upset because of the job? I mean I'm sure you have made mistakes, but then so did G and Derek, and as you said, they had each other and Peter. It took them months to get their act together and there was three of them and a federal structure. No matter what you've done it can't be that bad. You're upset about Vance? I can understand that considering all the screwed up things he's done, and maybe you can learn to tell him 'no' once in a while. Will it work? I don't know. I'm pretty sure if it worked all the times, we'd never have gone to Disney, but opposing him once in a while might make you feel better with your conscience, because if he makes a decision and people get hurt, you will still feel responsible if you don't raise objections." Savannah got off the bed and kneeled in front of him. "I'm guessing here, Marty, because I can't imagine you having done anything that would make me not like the person you are. I might get angry, but I've always known that you're a good person. Except for shopping trips and retrievals, you've gone to one mission. What can you have done?" She knew that she wasn't going to get an answer and sighed. "Look, put it this way. You're the one who told me that killing innocent people at the base was justified. If killing men whose only crime was to follow orders was right, then nothing you've done can be as bad."