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Tommy Merlyn (tommy_merlyn) wrote in omega_reality,
@ 2013-02-12 23:32:00

Entry tags:

*complete, 2013 02, character: oliver queen, character: savannah monroe, character: sean hanna, character: tommy merlyn

RP: Tommy and Sean
Who: Tommy and Sean (Maybe Savannah and Oliver)
Where: Macy's, St Clarita
When: Tuesday, February 11, 2014
Summary: They shop until they drop (or Savannah drags them around and they talk)

They were supposed to get some winter pants and jackets for the kids, but once they got there, Savannah kept remember things that they might need. He couldn't blame her considering that they had been prisoners on an island.

Of course, there was also Alexis' birthday (and Tommy didn't really talk to her, so he didn't particularly care), Valentine's Day (and the way things were going, it would touch Tommy even less than the birthday), and he suspected there was also a need to forget two deaths. Savannah kept talking, but even then, she kept touching Sean at random moments and watching him.

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Tommy/Sean

tommy_merlyn
2013-02-12 04:36 pm UTC (link)

Tommy would have left it alone, but when Callen had disappeared, he hadn't said anything. He had barely known Sean then. Now, he couldn't do the same, even if he probably should have. After all his track record with talking to friends wasn't that great. However, when Savannah dragged Oliver into yet another isle, Tommy got closer to Sean. "Are you okay?" he asked. "Actually, you don't have to answer that. I know how it feels to lose someone you love. If you want to talk to someone who isn't family." He left it there, giving Sean the chance to talk or not as he liked.

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Re: Tommy/Sean

sean_hanna
2013-02-14 03:27 am UTC (link)

"Good. I hate lying to my partner," Sean replied with a smile that was miles away from reaching his eyes.

After Dad and G had disappeared, he'd been numb, focused, determined. It had been easy to remind himself they were still out there somewhere and they were going to find them. If there were a few less jokes, a little more seriousness, it just was. He could push aside fear with optimistic proaction.

But now?

Now he was just angry. A small voice in the back of his mind that sounded suspiciously like Savannah said he shouldn't be. But, he was. He was angry at the scientists who'd fucked up and created the rifts, taking away Moms and Grams. He was angry at his Dad for not being there and setting the example. He was angry at Eric for falling into the damned rift, angry at Jen for being the Marine. He was angry at God for letting all this happen in the first place.

Mostly he was angry with himself as though he could have somehow done something.

Sighing, he shook his head. "Isn't much to talk about, really. Is there? Dead sister is still dead. Life goes on." And even if some version of Jen from another dimension came through, it would never be his Jen. She was gone.

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Re: Tommy/Sean

tommy_merlyn
2013-02-14 03:38 am UTC (link)

Tommy shook his head. "You don't have to lie," he reassured Sean. "Or you could try something different and tell me the truth," he added with a shrug. "I lost my mom. She was killed, in the middle of the street. After that, my father threw himself in his work, and I barely saw him again. I lost two parents with one bullet. Okay was not what I felt."

He wasn't sure about this cover thing, but he understood friendship and loss. It came natural to squeezed Sean's shoulder, learning his hand there when he spoke. "I was only eight, but I was sad, depressed, hurt, but mostly I was angry with so many people, angry because I'd lost the person I loved the most and my entire life had changed."

Tommy sighed. "Maybe that's what other people do, but life doesn't just go on. You get angry, then you feel too tired to be angry anymore, then you start mourning her. It'd be much easier if life just went on."

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Re: Tommy/Sean

sean_hanna
2013-02-14 09:17 pm UTC (link)

Sean reached up to squeeze the hand on his shoulder gratefully, then dropped his own hand with a sigh. "That sucks. I'm sorry. My dad was never around when I was growing up. But, I always had Moms. I was angry for a long time about that, too."

And, really, this wasn't much different. He had always, always hated this life, hated that people chose to leave their families behind and put the rest of the world first. A sort of uneasy peace had been made with it as he finally got his chance to know his dad and find out who he really was instead of the hero and disappointment Sean had imagined as a kid. But, he'd always known, in the back of his mind, that if something like this happened, he wouldn't take it well.

Maybe it was selfish. But, he resented that obligation that made his family choose the world first.

"She looked up to him when we were kids, far more than I ever did. If he was here, if it had been him in her place, he'd have done the same thing and she always wanted to be him when she grew up. Being like him, proving she was capable of living in the world he chose over us, it pretty much defined who she was as much as my desire to be his exact opposite did me. I hated him for not being there at times. I never understood it. I still only partially understand it. So, yeah, you could say I'm angry."

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Re: Tommy/Sean

tommy_merlyn
2013-02-14 10:14 pm UTC (link)

"I didn't tell you, because I want your sympathy. It was a long time ago, and I got used to it. The fact that my father is an asshole makes it a lot easier to adjust," he said with a snort.

"A friend recently said that we care about what our fathers think of us, but I can honestly say that I stopped caring years ago. Now, when something happens, I don't get angry. It's more like resignation, because I stopped caring about him," he continued. "If you're angry, it's because you do care."

Tommy knew that there were no easy answers here and he was far from the experienced soldier in the group, but he'd like to think that he understood people somewhat. "If something had happened and it was us standing by their table, and if I had gone through, would you have helped me? Would you have tried no matter the risk or would you have walked away? I know what most of the people I know what have done." They would have made sure their clothes hadn't been damaged and would have walked away. "But, what would you have done?"

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Re: Tommy/Sean

sean_hanna
2013-02-15 04:07 am UTC (link)

"You get it without asking," Sean told him with a brief smirk that faded in the next moment. He'd never gotten used to his dad being gone. There was always something he wished his dad was around to see, at least until he'd gotten into Juilliard and given up on his dad.

Then he'd landed here.

"Your friend isn't wrong," he said. "I never stopped caring. I thought I had. I got accepted to Juilliard and I was going to do something with my music and to hell with him. Except I never really meant it. And then we were here and things were...complicated."

Biting his lip, he glared at Tommy for a moment. He wasn't ready to be rational about this, yet. If he stopped being angry then he would have to feel everything else and he wasn't sure he'd be able to stand up straight for days. But, he had learned that much from his dad and G. You had your partner's back. Always. "I'd have stayed put and just zapped whatever was going to eat you from a safe distance," he muttered. Then he sighed. "No, I wouldn't. I'd try to help you. But...I'm the non-violent one in the family and I'd still think of frying the danger. Why didn't she use her gun? Tell Eric to use his power. Something??"

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Re: Tommy/Sean

tommy_merlyn
2013-02-15 04:29 am UTC (link)

"It's appreciated despite the lack of asking," he answered, but it had happened too long ago to still be painful. Tommy still missed his mother, but the pain was fading, just like the memories of her. "I can barely remember her. Sometimes I'm not sure if something is a real memory or something that I made up from pictures and stories from our maids. My dad never talked about her after she died."

Tommy chuckled. "He's right that some people care. He's wrong that I do. You? You definitely care." He patted Sean's back. "I haven't known your dad for long, and he's kind of nuts, but he's a good man. I can see why you would care."

He stood in front of Sean, eyebrow raised as he heard the answered. "Really? That would have worked out great after the thing closed," he said, with a snort. "Look, I get that it's easy to be upset, but you can't move forward until you can let go of the anger and embrace all the pain." He didn't really remember with his mother, but he knew what he went through with Oliver, looking for someone to blame until there was no one left to blame. "You can do it the right way, or you can do it like i did, with lots of alcohol, drugs and sex. What you can't do is being angry at a woman you obviously loved."

He squeezed Sean's arm. "What was she supposed to do? She was standing and then she was falling into another place, into water, and she was trying to help a friend. Just picture yourself in that position, without knowing what you know now. Boom, and you're somewhere else, and what do you say. Yes, let me get my gun out while I'm trying to stay afloat and keep someone else afloat, because there might be a giant dinosaur like sea monster? Oh sure, that's exactly what it would go through everyone's mind. And for the record, if you've watching Jurassic Park, you know a gun isn't going to do anything." He smiled a little. "I know we're supposed to get married according to my sweet sister, but when we go home, maybe you can spend some time with your family, talk to them about her, talk abot the good times and even the bad ones. Remember why you loved her so, and don't play the what-if game or you will drive yourself crazy."

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Re: Tommy/Sean

sean_hanna
2013-02-16 03:17 am UTC (link)

"Stop being so rational," Sean grumbled, though without any real menace in his tone. Anger was what was keeping him going. Reason was...a fast track to pain he wasn't sure he could deal with just yet. But, he couldn't deny he probably did sound like a spoiled toddler with his silly protests. "Although, really, the only thing I liked about that movie was john Williams' score," he added with a smirk.

Sighing, he shook his head. "Dad would have my head if I did it your way." Seeing if Brian had a small bit of weed he could spare for a night or two might not be amiss, though. It had been a few years, but extreme circumstances could excuse extreme measures. His smirk turned wicked one half second before he leaned in to kiss Tommy's cheek. "You're not half-bad at the fiance gig, you know that?"

Sobering again, he gripped Tommy's arm. "Thanks. This helped. I don't know that I'm ready to let go of the anger quite yet. I'm needed too much around here and I'll be useless when I finally do let go." He huffed softly. "Funny, I was always the weak link, the one most likely to end up dead or in trouble and needing their help. Now I'm the one that's left."

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Re: Tommy/Sean

tommy_merlyn
2013-02-16 03:30 am UTC (link)

"But I have to be rational once in a while. I just make sure I'm rational when talking about other people's lives and I still get to do the stupid stuff," he said, chuckling. "Of course, I need to be rational to point out that Jurassic Park rocks, especially if you're high, take some acid, and man, it's amazing."

Tommy snorted. "I'm shocked that he wouldn't have liked my way. He seems the type to promote drug use. My father wasn't around enough to care. If you didn't get it, that's pretty much a pattern in my family." He rolled his eyes at the kiss. "I'd say that I could try and keep it, but I never piss off someone who can kill me without moving."

He squeezed sean's shoulder. "You do what you have to do to feel better, and the rest can deal with it." He shook his head. "You're not the weak link and you have very good reasons to stay alive, and you should be having this discussion with the best reason you have. Let him help you through the pain, because trying to do it alone will be a bitch."

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