Sean Hanna (![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} sean_hanna) wrote in ![[info]](https://www.insanejournal.com/img/community.gif){kind=small} omega_reality, |
"I don't think she'd know what to do with herself if she actually rested. One of the first things she told me when I got here was how Dad and G had to make it a rule that she wasn't allowed to cook during the week so she could focus on training." Sean chuckled as Robert took the baby from him. "Of course, that was right before she started explaining my Dad to me the first time."
Taking a seat as instructed, Sean listened and he knew Robert was right. It was just hard to see it. "Yeah, Dad said he kept his distance from us to protect us and I know he thinks it was what was best, it was done out of love. But, it still doesn't really fill that Dad-shaped gap in the life of the sixteen year old living without his father and having very little idea who the man is or if he cares or could ever be proud of his son. It's better now between us. It is. And at twenty-two, I should get over it, probably. But, I'm still that sixteen year old kid looking for approval, I guess."
Sean snorted. "I don't think even G could control my dad if Dad didn't let him. I don't know. We'll see, I guess. I'll have to think of something to tell Savannah soon, anyway, otherwise he'll end up invited to family dinner whether I plan it or not. But, that'll totally be on him for telling her we're dating. Either way, I'm going to have to tell Dad and Jen it's not true. Mostly because there's no way I'd ever tell Director Vance or Savannah before I told them."
Laughing, he shook his head. "No, that was why Alexis and I decided we'd work as roommates. Neither of us is interested in the other that way. Very low drama." He shrugged. "I'm not really looking. Not really not looking. But, I've tried casual. Problem is I don't really do things by halves. I fall and fall hard and I keep falling because it's this amazing rush and even when it ends, that rush was still far more intense than the crash at the end. So, I get up, put it to music, and do it all over again. But, wanting to immerse myself in the person I'm with doesn't really lend itself well to casual. So, I wait for something a little less casual. And, when it happens, it'll happen. And if it doesn't happen, I'm really good with just having my family, friends, and music. It's pretty idyllic, really, no matter what the situation surrounding us is like."