"I know I do, but you are as much friend and family as they are. I don't want to lose that. I don't want to lose our friendship. It means too much- You mean too much to me, and I want to fix this. I want to do whatever I need to," he said.
Derek looked at Reid, taking in even the slightest changes in his behavior. He hadn't seen Reid this skittish since his addiction days, snapping at Emily. "No, Reid, I haven't said it all, and I've certainly not been clear. Fuck, I don't think I even know what I was trying to say, and I'm sure that some of it came out wrong, and I'm trying to apologize for that, not for the way I feel, because I know that neither one of us wants me to pretend, not about something as important as being in love, but the rest... I- I didn't make myself perfectly clear, because I wasn't even clear, and I didn't mean to hurt you, which I know I have."