Courting is excruciating. I know I make it look easy, but I don't like the uncertainty of doing the approaching. I know I have an image.
Now, foreplay, that's ecstasy. It should all be 'play'. We're having a good time, we're into each other, we're getting to know each other, we're not rushing toward a goal and nothing is too heavy, I don't know why I get so impatient. I rush it every time if I don't...if no one else is in control.
The act itself is, you know, it's fine.
Right after...it depends. Sometimes you know you're not wanted, sometimes it was too-- If it's good, though, this is the best part. I made someone happy, I'm feeling good, I feel like I can trust someone and they're not going to, you know, I already did something worse a second ago, I can let some things off my chest.
And after that, do you see each other again? I gotta be the first one out. It doesn't matter, I'll buy another bed if I have to. But maybe we can just start over again, do it better this time.