You say that like it's a new thing? I guess it's always changing. It's was hard. At first. Amazing. But- everything was different. I had this power- this body- I didn't know how to handle it. And all this responsibility. I didn't know what I was doing, I just tried to do what I thought was right. I made a lot of mistakes. When I went into the water- I thought that was it. That was how it was supposed to end. Noble death. That's how all the boys wanted to go, you know? Down in a blaze of battle. But it didn't end like that. Which was something I'd never thought about. I wasn't prepared. I was conscious. Most people don't know that. Not fully, but enough to be aware. I should've died, but I just kept going. Time lost meaning. And then I was brought out into this world and everyone I had known was dead or in a nursing home. Erskine- he couldn't have prepared me for it, none of them thought that far ahead, there was a war, the long term consequences weren't- I'm a man out of time. And I've made new connections, made a home for myself, but I don't know if it's going to be the same, if I'm going to stay like this and lose it all over again. People want to recreate the serum, they only see the strength, but they don't think- they don't understand what it really means.