Who fucking knows? Am I going to know it when I find it? I think I'm a success. Some days. But there's always someone better, something better, and if you're not the best what's the point? When do people start to care? How hard do you have to work to make them see what you can do? And what if you do your best and it's never going to be good enough? What if you're just relegated to be mediocre? A joke? Why should you try when you'll never be as good? And if you cheat the system you come out on top. Even for just a little while. Just a little fucking acknowledgement. People who care. People who listen. It's what you want, when you want it. And being wanted back. It's never enough.