If Wanda saw the flare of doubt in Tony's face she chose to ignore it and instead closed her eyes and allowed a sigh to escape her lips.
She could feel, with palpable embarrassment on her part, the goosebumps rise over her flesh at the touch of his mouth. Lips pressed, held, there- just below the dip between her collar bones. His fingers, his palm, through the thin cotton of her shirt, emanating heat against her chilled skin.
A beat, wait, a half second, and there it was. The expected shiver. From the pit of her stomach, up her spine. Always. Wanda's face flushed. Her traitorous body was giving her away.
He had to feel it, the raised skin, the quiver in her limbs, the sharp intake of her breath. And the fluttering. Just inches from his lips, her heart fluttering wildly, racing. Betraying her in this still silent moment. But she would not admit, not even to herself, and maybe he didn't know and anyway- it was nothing. It was just contact. Flesh. Warmth. Safety. Reality. Tony.
Wanda kept her eyes closed. Blame the cold. Ignore the shiver. Slow your breathing. Calm your heart. Deny. Don't fall, don't break, don't lose it. But don't let him go. Touch him. You need this, need the comfort, need the warmth, need him. Here, now. The touch of his lips.
Her hand in Tony's hair slithered down the back of his neck, around to his elbow. The other hand, the one clutching the sleeping pills, went limp and she let the bottle fall. Heard it clack, roll, beneath the night table. Out of sight. She had a better drug kneeling before her.
Fingers newly freed of their burden moved to grasp his other arm and slowly she drew Tony up, onto the bed beside her. Slowly, she opened her eyes. Denial. Don't let it show. Let him suspect anything, but not that. You'll lose him to the nightmares.
Eyes heavy-lidded, half open, fathomless and clear and blue. Head tilted back, gazing up, lips barely parted. "Tony, I-" Wanda began in a murmur. She couldn't tell him, I need you. There were a lot of things she couldn't tell him. "Kiss me, please," she begged, instead.