"I know. I know", she said softly and leaned back on her hands, green eyes studying the brilliant interior decorating of the room before settling back on her friend again. Paige was right. It was better this way. Hell, she could still very well be locked up at SHIELD and the Professor could have totally abandoned her. If she had a choice, she would rather have it this way for sure.
At the questions, Jean swallowed and looked away again, unsure of how to answer without causing more problems or causing her friend to fear her possibly even more than she did now. After a moment, she cleared her throat and glanced at the blond from behind a curtain of startling strawberry strands. "I know. I scare myself, Paige. I didn't know I could do that. I don't know what it is", she took a deep breath to keep her voice from cracking before continuing, "It was like someone else took over. It wasn't me. It was evil almost. It wanted to dominate and hurt".