Chaos Eyre (collected_chaos) wrote in noir_mystere, @ 2018-12-20 20:38:00 |
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Entry tags: | !thread, ajay, chaos |
Chaos & Ajay
Who: Chaos and Ajay
Where: Ajay's Dorm
When: December 20th about 3 AM
What: Confessions and DTR!!
It was stupidly late, or early depending on which view you wanted to take, and Chaos should be asleep. Not that there was much point. She was going to be grumpy as all fucking hell halfway through the day if she fell asleep now or not. It was that time during the moon cycle where it was particularly agitating. It was neither new nor full, it was even a complete phase. Sometimes it bothered the fuck out of her. which made her restless and unable to stay asleep. She wouldn't have managed sleep at all without Ajay's help. She had been exhausted when they had actually settled to sleep.
There was a time when Chaos would have just given up and gotten out of bed. She could at least DO something then. but tonight she had no motivation to move. It felt too good, even if she wasn't sleeping, to be wrapped in his arms. Really it felt even better than it normally did. probably cause she could actually let herself feel it in a way Chaos didn't allow during the day. Really feeling emotions meant people could see them and use them against you. She turned carefully in his arms so she was facing him. His calm breathing immediately working wonders to calm her agitation as her dark eyes moved over his face. Sleep made his beautiful features so peaceful. It took effort to not press her lips to his. She didn't actually want to wake him. if she could see her own face she would have gotten the confirmation of the effect of actually feeling feelings. All of the emotion was all over her face as her breathing slowed to match his.
"Its stupid have how hopelessly in love with you I am," she told him softly. He was asleep. it was safe to put a voice to the feelings she had never shared and terrified her. She lost the fight with her impulse to gently move a piece of hair from his face. "I really never thought I would fall in love. but you snuck up on me and by the time I realized it... I couldn't stand the idea of you not being there. It would hurt too much so I couldn't run." her words were barely more than a whisper through clear in the silent room. It was an odd sensation actually voicing her feelings. But it was also kinda exciting.
"Damn you, making me feel so damn much," she told him as she let her fingers trail lightly over his cheek.