Lourdes Backer (goth_barbie) wrote in noir_mystere, @ 2017-01-15 20:58:00 |
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Entry tags: | !thread, jareth blackbourn, lourdes backer |
Who: Lourdes and Jareth
When: Couple hours after GB's post
Where: Lourdes's secret place
What: Lourdes has very poor coping skills when forced to face things she would like to avoid.
It was no secret that Lourdes didn’t have the best coping habits in the world. She easily had some of the worst habits. Even when she was doing well, which had been lately, it was always so easy for her to fall back in to hold habit. Which is exactly what she had done. She was supposed to have been spending that night studying. Her grades had significantly improved with sobriety (Surprise surprise!). She hadn’t been studying though. She had gotten distracted the journals and the internet in general. She had been amused at first when saw GB's post. The chick was such a bitch and it was so amusing most of the time. She was clearly working through some issues but at least it was entertaining. At least it was until she saw her own name.
It felt like the world had dropped out from under her feet. Lourdes kept so many secrets from everyone but that one. That was the biggest of them all. The time she had spent with the Jonna, Professor Pine, it lead to everything else. He had given her first drink, got her high for the first, fucked her the first time, everything was Jonna. She didn’t know if she hated or loved that and the feelings confused her. She hated Jonna for his violent reaction when she left him, for lying to her and telling her she was the only one, for making her think that he truly loved her. Most of the time she kept it all buried deep but the thought of that secret coming out terrified her.
She ran. It wasn't physically far but she ran deep within herself. Physically she didn’t have to go far to get what she needed and it was a short walk to her hiding place deep in the secret passages of Mystic Veil. Jonna had shown her place it was one of the many places they went to use and fuck. But Jonna always found a new place when he finished with a girl. He wouldn’t want the old one walking in after all. She heard her phone ringing as she set up the lines to take but she ignored it. By the ringtone it was Trevor and he was the last person she wanted to find her now. She wasn't ready for him to know her secrets. Hell she wasn’t ready for anyone to know.
It’s never good to use alone, she thought as she laid down on the mattress in the corner. Then again she always used this alone. Heroin was a little too far over the line for most of her friends. It had been her and Jonna’s things before it was just hers. She had never used it enough for it to become a major problem but it was still the go to when she just wanted to disappear. Which is exactly what she did as the drug took effect and she felt her cognitive thought slipping.