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Tweak says, "I AM THE ALPHA!"

Marc Spector / Steven Grant / Jake Lockley (summon_the_suit) wrote in noexits,
@ 2022-07-28 16:02:00

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!network post, marvel (comics): laura kinney, marvel (tv/movies): marc spector, our flag means death: edward teach, star trek: spock, the magicians: margo hanson, ₴ inactive: lara croft, ₴ inactive: silena beauregard, → week 041 (rest week)

Rest Week - Day 6
Hey. There's something about me people ought to know about. I've already told a few people already and... yeah. So, some of you have met me, Marc, and others have met Steven. But they're both me. This isn't some stupid game, and I'm not faking it, but... I have a mental health issue. Psychiatrists call it Disassociate Identity Disorder. I really do have two personalities, it's not pretend.

I wasn't up front about it before since it's not the sort of thing you lead an introduction with, hello I'm clinically insane. I've had it for most of my life and I've... managed to hide what's wrong with me because I don't have ~~any~~ many friends back home. I'm a loner. But here, it's harder to blend in with the crowd and keep to yourself.

Things are further complicated because, like Layla who wrote about herself a couple of days ago, I'm an avatar for an Egyptian god. Khonshu. God of the moon, the night sky, and vengeance. I wasn't supposed to be anymore, but Steven and I had a talk with him last night and... I guess we're still stuck. Being an avatar means that I'm supposed to follow what he wants me to do, and in return he gives me special abilities. We're still negotiating that, since these are unusual circumstances. Besides, Khonshu's strength is derived from the moon and only works at night, and since the void really doesn't have either of those, he's pretty useless. At least during those void weeks. When we were in L.A. and in zombie world, he told me he had his usual power.

It's harder to tell us apart over the network, but we've been trying to let people know who's been writing when we've been posting comments. But Steven Grant has a British accent and uses British slang. I'm American.

And that's about it. If anybody has questions, Steven and I will try to answer.

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	ovaryup 2022-07-28 11:43 pm UTC (link)
	You're technically not criminally insane because both you and Steven understand your actions. But the American mental health care system is fucked so they'd probably send you somewhere to rot if you were caught doing something like vengeance. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	summon_the_suit 2022-07-29 12:25 am UTC (link)
	That's why Khonshu helped to make sure I was never caught. I experienced being heavily medicated in a psych ward ~~though technically it was in my mind~~ and I have no desire to experience that again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ovaryup 2022-07-29 12:33 am UTC (link)
	How? You're his avatar. You're the one doing all the work. Most mental health facilities are out-patient these days. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	summon_the_suit 2022-07-29 12:32 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, we are. Don't worry, I'm not dangerous. But if you feel uncomfortable, I'll arrange to sleep somewhere else. Thanks for the offer, but I really don't know. I'm a bit overwhelmed as it is. You? Problems? You look too together to have struggles. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	graspingvine 2022-07-29 05:19 pm UTC (link)
	For what it's worth, I never felt uncomfortable or in danger around you. Just caught me off guard when I realized the different accents. I understand, it definitely sounds overwhelming. Hah, oh trust me, I am not together. I've just gotten maybe a bit too good at burying it? Which isn't exactly healthy, so um, maybe don't follow my lead all the way. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	summon_the_suit 2022-07-29 02:24 am UTC (link)
	Layla and I are a couple. She's uh... actually my wife. Hello, Silena. Greek gods, huh? Are you an avatar, too? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	poweroflove 2022-07-29 02:40 am UTC (link)
	That's great, I bet helps to have her here. Well, no, I'm actually a demigod. My Dad's completely human, mortal, but my mother is Aphrodite. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)