................. sbfathjfgnoifgjopreakglNATOGJIDFGJGOPDF. May have to come back later with actual words. All I can do for now is c/p my favourite bit:

"With Roman, everything had been different. Fucking Roman... fucking Roman had never been just fucking. Partially because he'd really had no idea what he was doing, but also because even after they'd done something enough times that Deniz could probably have drawn a very detailed diagram, it was never the same. Seemed so twisted that he could sleep with ten women and it would always feel the same, but that he could sleep with one person ten times and it would always feel different.

Sex was the one part of their relationship that had worked. It was the one honest thing Deniz felt like he had ever really done."

Incredible and so poignant, gaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.