It's times like these when I REALLY wish I was better at commenting on fic because I so badly want to convey how awesome I think this is and how much I love it. I think I will start by saying ditto to everyone aldiara said and do a preemptive ditto to the analytical novel that I'm sure giorgiakerr will eventually provide (and if you don't now because I wrote this, I will hunt you down and tie you to your keyboard until you do because I love your comments that are sometimes longer than the posts themselves).

The thing that strikes me the most is the spot-on characterization. It's incredible, absolutely incredible. You have a gift for getting inside these characters' heads and putting into words all these complex and often contradictory thoughts and feelings that they are having. I want to quote the exact same passage that Aldi because it's fucking brilliant. The whole Deniz part is just totally a cycle of Deniz back then, the way he deals with his vulnerability and confusion by turning to drugs and distractions and then falls even lower because of it which prompts him to self-destruct even further but all interspersed with tortuous moments of semi-clear thought where he feels completely exposed and so fucking confused -- you just captured it all so well.

Bloody fucking well done, I'm completely depressed.