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Jason Penn - Arthur ([info]jasonpenn) wrote in [info]newdublinrp,
@ 2018-04-25 04:01:00

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Who: Jason, Merritt, Zel
When: After This
Where: Zel's apartment
Rating: High



He'd sped his way to her place, not concerned about the traffic or speed limit. The entire way he tried to get her to reply on her phone. Thankfully he still had access to her apartment. When he arrived he called out her name, "Zel!" Jason checked her room and then saw the light in the bathroom on.

She was laying on the floor, her hand was bleeding and she was passed out. Quickly Jason rushed to her side and felt for a pulse, it was faint. Looking around he saw the broken bottle on the floor and a used vial of warp. "Fuck Zel."

"Zel?"

Jason heard another voice in the loft, someone who must have entered minutes after him. "In here!" He called, not sure who it was and he didn't care. "Help me!" He recognized the other man from the news, her lawyer- he wasn't aware they were that close. Thankfully though they were. "Get her arm, help me lift her up." The two men grabbed her under an arm and Jason instructed to lift her and he turned her around over the toilet. This wasn't the first time he'd dealt with someone who almost OD'd, he'd talked to her before about her drug usage and was always careful not to sound like a counselor. But in all honesty, for as clean as she kept saying Camelot was... it had it's dark side. They just tried to help people get better.

"Hold her head." Jason told the other man as he opened her mouth and stuck his finger in her mouth and down her throat to trigger her gag reflex. He knew there were safer ways to do this... like in the hospital, but in a pinch... It took a couple of tried but even unconscious, her reflex caused her to throw up some. "Come on Zel, a little bit more." He winced as he triggered her one more time. He watched her gasp for air, still out, but breathing a little better at least.

Jason passed her to the other man. "Here, hold her." He said as he moved to the shower and turned on the water to cold and with the help of the lawyer put her in. "Watch her and make sure the water doesn't get in her nose or mouth." He said as he picked up the bits of the bottle and warp vial and left the room.


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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 11:48 am UTC (link)
"I'm sorry." She said after she cleaned her face and mouth off with the help of the shower water. Slowly she came back to Merritt. "I wont..." she stopped as she knew it would be a lie.

Slowly she came to a stand as she stumbled back into the shower wall. "No.. hospitals. Please." Zel knew if she went to a hospital they'd put her on a suicide watch as well as clean slate.

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[info]fromthedark
2018-04-25 11:54 am UTC (link)
"Wasn't planning on it. Don't know about him though." Merr looked to the door. Slowly he got to his feet and sighed. "Want me to ask him to leave?"

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 11:56 am UTC (link)
"No..." she said as she moved to clean off her face better at the sink as she was able to brush her teeth and tongue to get rid of the taste and smell of throw up. She came to look at Merr for the moment. "I'm scared."

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[info]fromthedark
2018-04-25 11:59 am UTC (link)
He turned off the shower. When she turned to him he pulled her in for a hug. "I know." Merr could feel it. "But I'm here... every when I'm not actually here." How did he become the strong one?

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 12:02 pm UTC (link)
She came to wrap her arms tightly around him. Only to exhale a moment as she pulled away. Slowly she came to step out the bathroom and bedroom. Moving to stand by the kitchen entrance.

"Jason..." she said sucking in a breathe. But when he looked at her all Zel could do was rush into the man's arms as she held him tightly crying again. "I'm sorry.." she said between pants.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 12:10 pm UTC (link)
Jason had been trying to find something, anything in her kitchen to help her, he managed to work up a concoction that should work and was about to seek her out when he heard his name. Quickly he set the glass on the counter as she rushed to him. He held her tight his eyes closed as he rested his head on hers. "Shhh.." He shook his head, not needing to hear it. "Here." He said, slowly pulling away and handing her the drink. "Drink this. Should help with the headache you don't have yet and help clear up things and settle your stomach. Might not taste the best but I tried to add some fruit juice you had to help with that."

He gestured to her couch. "Sit." He instructed as he grabbed the first aid kit he found and a small bowl of water with a cloth and towel. "Let me take a look at your hand."

Looking up to her room he saw the lawyer and nodded slowly. The other man nodded back. "I'm going to be going." He said giving Zel a look. But I'm still with you. "Thank you for..." He nodded to her.

Jason nodded back and shook the man's hand. "Happy to. She's lucky to have a friend like you." After the lawyer left he joined Zel on the couch to treat her cut.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 03:58 pm UTC (link)
When Jason told her to drink and sit she did just that. The drink wasn't great but it was supposed to make her feel better so she did her best to drink it all. When Merritt said his goodbye Zel nodded. She knew Merr would never leave her.

When Jason came to sit next to her and work on the cut on her hand she didn't say anything. But she did wince from the pain, even though that wasn't his intention.

Zel didn't say anything really. She simply just looked down and away from him for the moment. Did he know she did it on purpose? Was he aware just how fucked up she was now? Was he going to leave?

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 09:09 pm UTC (link)
First he cleaned the wound with the rag and water. His touch was gentle. It was clear this wasn’t the first time he’d treated an injury. Once clean he dried the area with the towel. He pulled out some spray to help keep the area clean and then placed some gauze over the area. Lastly he wrapped her hand. Once complete he placed her hand in her lap and then gathered everything up and moved back into the kitchen to put everything away.

He didn’t speak as he worked, just quietly treated her.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 09:19 pm UTC (link)
Zel exhaled. Once he was done, and he moved to clean and put everything away she came to a stand, slowly. Steps leading her to the kitchen as she stood by the entrance. "You don't have to do that..." She said as sh felt her palm pulsing, but that was natural. What wasn't natural was him cleaning up her mess. With her unbandaged hand, she brushed her blonde hair fom her face.

Slowly she came up behind him. She wanted tot ouch him, but didn't. "Will you stop that." She said about him cleaning the mess. It was her mess, he shouldn't have to clean it up for her.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 09:31 pm UTC (link)
Jason shook his head. “Go, sit.” He said as he grabbed a rag. “I got this. You need to rest or your going to make yourself sick again. While that might not be the worst thing... you won’t be happy.” He places a hand on her arm and moved to escort her back to the couch.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 09:34 pm UTC (link)
She came to pull her arm from when he took hold of it, only to stumble slightly before gaining her posture. "I'm not a child, Jason." She said as she came to look at him fo the moment. "Don't treat me like one of your community kids." She said as she cam to exhale while pinching the bridge of her nose for the moment. She felt like shit, and was pretty sure she looked it also.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 09:42 pm UTC (link)
He sighed, placing the washcloth on the counter. He clenched his fists and shook his head. He refrained from his first instinct response. “I’m just trying to make sure you don’t pass out again because you pushed yourself too hard too fast.” Jason told her. “You’re lucky you body didn’t going into shock.” That’s why he’d stuck her in the shower. “But if you don’t want my help... I get it. I’ll go.” Jason moved over to the chair he’d tossed his jacket.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 09:48 pm UTC (link)
She watched as he put the cloth down and the way he shook his head. Already she moved to that chair as she took hold of his jacket and bike keys. Holding that jacket against her chest and moved away from him. Her head shaking. "I just.. Stop treating me, like I'm some delicate flower. Show me, tell me how you really feel right now."

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 10:19 pm UTC (link)
Jason gave her a look, one that showed a combination of hidden regret and shame. “How do I feel?” He asked, his voice wasn’t defensive or offensive it was very neutral. “I was terrified.” He answered. It was easy for him to pilot into a leader mode... taking care of things. Which is what the situation had called for. Emotions were pushed to the side so he could focus on the task at hand.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 10:25 pm UTC (link)
She didn't really show any emotion. Despite telling her he was terrified. Her hand lowered as she held that jacket down from her chest. Another heavy sigh escaped her lips. "..Okay, Jason.." Is all she said as she tossed his jacket back on the chair. "If you want to leave, then leave." Is all she said as she came to step further away from him, as she brought her arm around her.

Her own head shaking for the moment, as she tried to move past him. Her hand coming over her face to clean it of the tears that tried to escape once more. The last time Zel cried so much and so often was after she was raped. But since she joined The Wire, she never cried. Until recent events.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 10:37 pm UTC (link)
Jason’s brow furrowed as she passed him. “Is that what you want?” He asked softly. He felt as if his heart were shatttering more and more every second. “Me to go? Leave you?” He paused, letting the double meaning linger. His eyes glistened slightly as the started to water up, but he managed to keep his composure.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 10:41 pm UTC (link)
Suddenly she came to a stop. Did she want him to leave? Walk out that door and never come back? Forget the two years they had, and the few weeks they shared as a couple. Could she forget him? Morgan? Her head hurt, but her chest hurt worse as she felt like her heart was literally shattering at the thought. She couldn't do this, she was horrible at it. But she couldn't picture herself without him now.

She came to turn and look at him, visible tears on her face. She didn't care. "...No.." She said softly as she started to cry into her palms as she covered her face.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 11:06 pm UTC (link)
Jason walked forward and slipped his arms around her. He pressed his lips into her hair as he closed his eyes, causing a tear to fall. He didn’t say anything, just held her as if she would vanish if he let her go. After a long moment he finally whispered. “I love you.”

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 11:12 pm UTC (link)
When he wrapped his arms around her, she closed her eyes as she wrapped her arms around his waist. When he said he loved her, she exhaled deeply. "...Why..." She asked softly, as she came to look up at him. "I'm not good at this.. I... I don't know what I'm doig." She admitted softly.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 11:28 pm UTC (link)
“And I do? I’m just as clueless on how to make this work as you. But I’m committed to trying.” He told her. “Because I really do love you.” Jason kissed her forehead. “I’d like you to pack some things and stay with me for a few days.” He brushed his hand over her hair. “Please?”

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 11:34 pm UTC (link)
When he said he wanted her to pack a few things and stay with him, all she could do was nod her head as she swallowed. Already she pulled him with her, as she entered her bedroom. Going to grab at her bag she looked towards Jason. "..Are you sure about this..." She asked. Making sure this is what he wanted.

Already she opened that bag, as she started to pack some clothes and datapad. "...Jason..." She didn't really know how to put it, but all she did was look towards that pink box with her vials in it. It was horrible, even knowing she almost ODed she still wanted them. It was part of her, unfortunately.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 11:41 pm UTC (link)
“I’m sure.” He said softly. His eyes followed hers to the box. “Bring them. We’ll work something out.” Jason said softly. “Once you’ve recovered.” He stood in the doorway and watched her pack. He couldn’t help how much he wanted to just hold her and protect her.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 11:44 pm UTC (link)
She came to nod her head slowly. Packing the vials and leaving the box behind. Her bag taken hold of as she came to stand at the doorway. Her gaze was lowered for the moment since she couldn't really look at him. He'd seen her have breakdowns. But for him to actually see her almost OD was different.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-25 11:55 pm UTC (link)
Jason slipped his hand under her chin and coaxed it up to look at him. “It’s going to be okay. Tonight we’re dealing with your demons.” He said softly. Tomorrow. We’ll deal with mine.” He leaned down and gave her a kiss. “But first, let’s get home. I’ve got a neighbor to save from a kid who is probably refusing to go to bed.”

He escorted her out of the apartment and down to his bike. He let her have the helmet as they got on. “Hold tight.” He told her with a smile.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-25 11:58 pm UTC (link)
She came to take the helmet and slip it on as she came to hold on tight to him. Of course, she couldn't help but think, what he meant by that. How exactly was he going to deal with her demons? Her demons were rooted into her, made her this fucked up person she is now. She wasn't sure, but she followed him either way.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-26 12:02 am UTC (link)
Once they arrived at his place Jason lead her up to his place and excused himself briefly before going to his neighbors to pick up Morgan. He also arranged for her to take him the next night all night. Morgan was asleep when Jason arrived so he hefted the boy and took up his bag. When he arrived back at his apartment he dropped the bag in the corner of the boys room and gently laid the boy in the bed. Shushing him as he started to stir.

Jason then joined Zel in his room. “He’s asleep.”

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-26 12:07 am UTC (link)
Once in the apartment, Zel moved off to the bedroom. Nodding when he excused himself to go get Morgan. In the meantime, Zel had changed into the boxers and shirt that she'd been accustomed to wearing when sleeping over Jason's place. Hearing Moran was asleep she nodded her head. She couldn't help but stare at Jason for the moment.

"...What.. are you planning...?" She asked with a raised brow.

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-26 12:29 am UTC (link)
“No more rules.” He said, kneeling on the ground before her. “Except one. We try.” Jason took her hands on his. “We try.... First, you try to only get high when there’s someone else there. Not alone. Doesn’t have to be me, but just don’t take anything when alone.” He said softly, he didn’t want to force her clean, because he knew she wasn’t ready... but he didn’t want to lose her either. “And you think about taking clean slate twice a month to keep the side effects to a minimum.” He’d but it if she couldn’t afford it.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-26 12:35 am UTC (link)
When he said no more rules, she came to look at him suddenly as he kneeled down before her. Taking her hands in his, she listened. Swallowing down for the moment. "...I don't like... Clean slate..." She admitted softly. "I don't like.. Being sober, the way it makes me feel.: She said as she came to look away from him again. "...But..." She said as she exhaled. "..I'll try"

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-26 12:39 am UTC (link)
“And it’s just for two days a week. They can be on days you stay home. But I’ve seen addiction effects tear someone apart.” Emotional breakdowns and suicide attempts... “and all I ask is try. And you’re not alone. I’ll be there will you every time if you want. We can schedule things to help keep you distracted like family game night.” Jason squeezing her good hand slightly. “We try.” He kissed her hand. He knew he’d have to tackle himself next... which was always harder.

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[info]broughttolight
2018-04-26 12:44 am UTC (link)
"Jason..." She said softly as he squeezed her hand. "..What if.. I can't?" She asked honestly. "...I never... had anyone ask this of me before... Infact the people from my past have the only ever fueled my addiction..." She said softly as she brushed her hair from her face as she came to look away from Jason. Hearing about game night, had her closing her eyes for the moment. "...I don't know.. how to be part of a family.."

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[info]jasonpenn
2018-04-26 12:58 am UTC (link)
“I’m not asking you to succeed. Just try.” Jason insisted. In theory the more they try, the better they’ll get. Like practice. He couldn’t help but smile at her family comment. “It’s not something you learn. It’s just something you are.” He had, had a family until he was eleven, then he drifted. But in the end he’d made his own family within Camelot and now he hoped with her.

A small knock came on his bedroom door and it cracked open. Morgan stood there rubbing his eyes. “Da..?” He yawned. Those young piercing blue eyes landed on Zel and he smiled sleepily. “Zel!” He half walked- half stumbled to her and put his arms around her.

“Bother bad dream buddy?” He asked, suddenly closed to tears at the sleepy almost ‘dad’... it was the first time Morgan hadn’t called him Jason. The kid nodded. “Hop in.” Jason said as he kissed Zel on the forehead and whispered “Sorry. You should call in tomorrow. I’m going to reschedule my classes. We’ll stay in.” He then rose up off the floor and moved to climbi into bed as Morgan took up a position in the middle, already asleep again.

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