"I don't need applause or to be adored. I just play what is inside of me." It wasn't for the amusement of others, but to mourn or rejoice what came from his heart. If others felt that pain or happiness then it was a seed of connection he had with the rest of the world. The moment he lost that connection and became a circus show, then he was not the artist he'd thought. It was never about favoritism. "I don't want their love, I want them to see what I see, feel what I feel."