Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs, @ 2015-12-31 13:53:00 |
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Entry tags: | theseus, zoe hansen |
WHO: Zoe & Theseus
WHEN: December 4 - 22 [Backdated]
WHERE: Theseus' boat, Mall, Zoe's apartment
WHAT: Showing Theseus what Christmas is about
WARNING: None
Note: The log reads backwards
Zoe got up and said, "You have meetings tomorrow... soon, okay?" she went over to him and smiled, putting her arms around his neck and giving him a big hug. She wasn't looking forward to the massacre but it felt great to know her dad loved her so much.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 6:05 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"You expect me to ignore it? Just let it slide? If not tonight then tomorrow Zoe." Theseus wasn't settled or comfortable now knowing that Lust had roped her into some disgusting spiderweb and Greed watched. Theseus had stood back while Poseidon tried to destroy her once too to make some sort of mark. But not like this, this was degrading on a level that as a father he couldn't let slip through his fingers again.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 8:23 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"We can't!" said Zoe in a near panic and then tried to think of why not. "Ummmm he's out with Digger and I don't know where they are. So even if I wanted to take you to him, I couldn't." this was actually exactly what she'd wanted, someone to be outraged over what happened to her, for someone to love her enough to fight for her and despite it all, she kinda smiled a little even tho her dad wanted to murder her boyfriend.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 5:16 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Zoe, let's go." His Christmas spirit was quickly drained the moment she let him in on the life she had with Greed. "Telling him isn't going to make it okay. He has to learn that his actions effect more than just you." He wasn't going to see this happen again in front of him. Not when he finally had a baby girl to fret over. This was doing what a father should. "He's lucky I don't bury him six feet under water."
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 7:47 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe looked aghast, "Dad! I am not going to lead you to him just so you can yell at him. It's not going to DO anything. I already told him it wasn't right what he did...." but she could tell Greed was still struggling between wanting power and wanting her. She hugged her knees stubbornly and didn't get up.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 4:44 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus had his jacket back on, looking at her in disbelief. "Do you hear yourself? It doesn't matter who put it on. He led you into a bad situation and kept you in it just to save his own ass." Greed needed to be punished for it. He needed to hear from someone else that if he did something like that nature again, he would serve repercussions. "Come on. We're going to see him and I'm going to give him a piece of my mind."
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 7:39 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe put down her cider and held up her hands, putting them on his arms, "No! No! He didn't chain me up.. Lust put a collar on me and Greed just kinda.. didn't do anything about it." which also sounded bad but the thing was, it WAS bad.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 4:36 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
As the story unfolded the more it just snowballed into something worse. The calm face he'd had dropped to one of complete disgust and anger. "He chained you up like an animal? That's not okay Zoe. I'm not okay with this..." He was already looking for his leather jacket. He wanted to pay Greed a visit and fight this out like a man.
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe stayed quiet and then just raised her gaze to her dad's with the look of a child who knew they did something bad and were coming clean about it. So out spilled the story of how they try casually to keep the relationship secret but Lust found out and wanted to meet her so Greed wanted to change her into the type of girl that Lust would think Greed would go for and pretend like it was no big deal but then Lust set the meeting place at this sex club and she was mean and rude and generally awful and she was rough with her and she wanted Zoe to do nasty things like sex acts on Greed but she didn't and then she took a collar and put it on her (and by now she was wiping at her eyes with the back of her hand) and Greed went along with it to try to get her out of there but he'd been SO casual about it, he was just glad it was over, he didn't care that Lust had done that to her. He just let her. They talked and fought about it later but it didn't change that it happened. They took a break and now they were back together that his head was a bit clearer.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 3:59 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"So, what did he do this time." Theseus wasn't going to back down. Papa bear was gearing up to charge. Greed might have his moments, he might have some differences from Lust, but Theseus knew Lust played all the men in her palm to her own tune. None, not even Greed could cut that string once she pulled it.
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She pulled up her feet onto the chair she sat on and said, "He has this thing... where he's obsessed with power and he wants to be King of the excess Sins but his sister..." she heaved a huge sigh and eyed her father, "as you know is kinda a cruel evil person. So she needles him and pokes at him and he lashes out and it's difficult for him cause he needs to be this big bad monster to fight her for the crown but he's this teddy bear when he's with me. So it becomes a conflict..." her voice becoming very quiet as she said, "...he gets confused." she took a sip.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 3:30 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus didn't want to hear about Zoe's sex life, he cringed a little as she just threw it out there. "That's some improvement yes, but what has he done that is making you so nervous?" Theseus wasn't perfect either, but Greed was capable of so much more damage.
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"I don't cover it up.. he's a Sin so I don't expect it to be easy being with him. And he's a lot better than he used to be. In the beginning he balked at the idea of not sleeping with other people but now he says even when he does it it doesn't feel good and he only wants to be with me. He just.. you know, needs to work on the relationship part where he puts me before other things. And.. stuff." her eyes dropping to the brown liquid as she sipped it, getting nervous.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 3:18 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Obviously it wasn't nothing if you can't even tell me." He was concerned. "Zoe..." He walked towards her. "No matter how well you speak of him, I worry about what he'll do to you. You can't cover up who he is."
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"yes you should give him a chance and yes he did something stupid but you dont need to know about it, it happened a couple of months ago and he's apologized and we're working on it. Can you please just judge him from how he will be from the christmas party on and not what he's done already?" she gave him a pleading puppy face.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 2:17 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Should I give him the chance? Has he done something stupid that I need to know about?" Though he'd already put the offer on the table, he couldn't very well take it away. He had his reasons for inviting Greed along to see how he acted with others.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 4:35 PM Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She put the eggnog a bit further along on the counter and had some apple cider herself so he wouldn't have to smell it even in her cup. She stuck a cinnamon stick in his glass and sat down saying, "Nothing! Nothing big. It's not a big deal, it's a total non-issue." she sipped the cider and said, "Besides, you said you were going to give him a chance at the christmas party."
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 1:32 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Apple cider was a welcome change. "Get that as far from me as you can." He watched her try to explain and still stumble on her words. "What happened?" He said stern.
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe covered her mouth as she chuckled, "It's eggnog, I thought you'd hate it but you had to try it!" she took the cup from him and said, "It's why I also have apple cider." she went to pour him a glass of that and was hunting for the cinnamon sticks when he poked about her and Greed. She twisted her lips to the side, she was a terrible liar and so said, "We... have our issues. I mean, we hit rough patches but we don't give up. I mean, we're still together, just.. we're having.. we're.." she frowned, "We're working on it."
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 12:35 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
The moment he took a swig of eggnog he made a face. "What in Zeus' name is in that?" He most definitely hated it. And his perceptive father feelers could pick up on more than what she was saying. "Are you sure? You don't sound so sure."
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe smiled big, "That is shockingly and amazingly great of you..." she turned her lips in and rubbed them together as she poured the egg nog and brought Theseus a cup of it, "Ummm... yeah we're.. yeah." was all she said. She didn't want to tell him about what happened with Lust especially if he was willing to give Greed a chance.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 11:43 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm saying I'll give him a night to prove himself not to be an idiot with my daughter." Theseus' own test for Greed. He was giving the boy a chance because Zoe deserved that much. "Things are okay with you two?" Even though he secretly hoped the kid might one day do his damage and be gone. There was no trust in him when he's dealt with Sins himself. To Theseus Greed was no different than Lust.
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe led him into the kitchen where she had everything set up and went to put two cups of eggnog which she was sure he'd hate. She raised her brows and stopped mid-pour and looked at him, "I can bring Greed? You're saying you want him there?" she grinned, "You feeling okay?"
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 10:28 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus pocketed the picture, standing up and ready for Soe to show him how this gingerbread house was done. He also thought it the time to bring up the company Christmas party. "You going to the company Christmas party? You can bring Greed." As if he were giving her his fatherly ok. He was accepting Greed as her boyfriend for one night.
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe basked in her father's embrace, she was an affectionate and love starved child so she lapped up whatever she could get. She knew his question was a way to try to break the heavy emotion he was feeling and she obliged him. "Gingerbread house and it's in the kitchen." and she stood up. But when he tried to give the picture back to her, she put her hand over his and gently pushed it back to him. She wanted him to keep the picture, she had a feeling it'd hold more meaning to him than sitting in a box forgotten.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 8:29 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He held her for what seemed like an eternity. It had been a long time since Theseus had held a child and with that kind of love and humanity. His hand with the picture was shaking as he gave it back to her. "What about this ginger house making thing?" He cleared his throat.
On Monday, December 28, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe didn't know what else to say except a soft, "I know.." because it wasn't okay what he did but she did know he was sorry. He was proving it and after many false starts he was finally being the man his wife had always known he could be. And if she had been there she would have said better late than never.
On Mon, Dec 28, 2015 at 7:03 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I'm sorry," he squeezed her tightly as if it could make up for all the lost years. The tears and the broken memories. In that moment he could feel Sophia there with them.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
They couldn't change the past. Zoe could wish a million times for a picture of Theseus with her as a baby. Or for Thea and Sophia to not be dead. For them to be a family. But nothing could make any of that happen. All they had was right now and they were making their little family again between the two of them. She gave him a squeeze around his middle that was one of her loving Zoe hugs and she relished finally being her daddy's little girl even if she wasn't so little anymore.
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 4:43 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was when Zoe spoke that he snapped out of that self-loathing cycle. All those memories coming back were so painful. Thea had been a sweet child, and leaving had done damage that even Sophia's love and kind words couldn't fix.
And when Zoe called him Daddy and knew she was saying it, it just crushed him inside. His one thing that did make him different from his own father---his compassion. His ability to love. He curled her to his chest in only an embrace a father could give his child.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe's heart broke for her father and she very gently brushed the pads of her fingertips across his cheek to wipe the tears away saying softly, "It's okay, Daddy..." as if he was the child who needed comforting. It was the first time she'd acknowledged him as her father to his face. Not Theseus or you or mr. moreau, but just.. her father. He'd made a lot of mistakes and it took him a long time to earn her love and trust but that entire journey had led to this moment.
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 4:29 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
He traced that sweet baby's face with his fingers, another fat tear making its way down his cheek. Theseus never faced the reality of those he left behind because he didn't want to feel this kind of loss again and again. Getting close to people, loving them, it was painful when those he loved would die. He'd rather have a few short memories then millions of difficult ones. His first son. His first real love. They were all painful.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe sat next to him and said, "She never talked about you much.. and whenever mom would say anything, Thea would.. she would get so mad. I think mom thought she hated you but... if she kept that picture then I don't think she hated you. I think she just missed you a lot." Zoe had no baby pictures of herself with her father and she wished she did but Theseus didn't even know Sophia had been pregnant with her. Not that it would have mattered much... she doubted he'd have come back for her. But the picture (among some others) proved he did live a normal happy life for a short time.
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 4:13 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus brows knitted in confusion until he saw what she was gushing about. He had to take a seat. He couldn't even remember Thea much at all, but suddenly a lot emotions flooded him. Memories of Sophia, how excited she'd been, he sweet sweet face. And in that moment just like Zoe's newfound excitement at spending time with him, Theseus had been content. For a moment he'd settled into a normal life with a woman he loved and it was nice. But then he'd gotten scared and he did what he was good at---he ran, thinking only of himself and not of those glimpses of happiness.
In that moment Theseus covered his mouth with his hand. Few times did he let his emotions overwhelm him, and this was one of them as tears pricked his eyes.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She waved him over to the sofa and said, "I was taking out some of Thea's decorations for the tree and look...." she took out a small black and white square picture and handed it to Theseus. It was a picture of him winking at the camera while lying down and his baby girl (Thea) was on his chest.
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 9:11 AM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
It had really been nice to spend time with just Zoe outside of work, sans Greed or anyone else. It was a tad selfish on both their parts, but making up for lost time. Zoe was actually excited to have him there and that warmed the old pirate's heart.
He stepped inside met with her wide brown eyes. "What?" He asked curiously.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
The next Christmas insistence of Zoe's was Theseus come over to make a Gingerbread house and drink some eggnog. She let her dad in and said, "Guess what I found!" and she didn't let him guess as she went over to the sofa where there were some small boxes of ornaments (but there was no tree in the apartment).
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 8:58 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus' mouth fell a little, that warm fuzzy feeling at hearing her actually call him her father out loud. So, when they posed for the picture, Theseus had a sweet, genuine smile. He wouldn't announce it to her just yet, he'd keep it to himself.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe laughed at Santa's remark and said, "Well my Dad's never had a Christmas before so I thought since he'd be on the nice list this year, might as well meet the big man himself." it was the first time she'd referenced Theseus as her father in front of him but it didn't look like she even caught onto the fact that she did it and Santa already wanted them to pose on either side of him for the picture.
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 8:51 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus wanted to throw back that she was with the most selfish person in the world. The guy that didn't know what "giving" was. How on earth could she enjoy Christmas with Greed's sticky fingers? He didn't though, because that would have soured the moment. He was going to rise above being petty for at least one day. But he would prove to her that Greed wasn't the giving type when he reminded her about the office Christmas party which shed invite Greed to.
He simply gave her a half-smile about to speak when Santa let out a jolly "Ho, ho, ho," and ushered them to his side with his hand. "Big children!" He laughed looking at his miserable look elves that were no more than high school kids in a temporary job.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She pointed at him, "HAH!" she said when he admitted it was infectious and then clapped her hands together, "See, thats what Christmas is about. Everything is just really kind and generous and happy. I used to think I didn't mind not celebrating anymore but I really missed it."
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 8:32 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"Why isn't that an answer? That's a perfectly legit answer." She really was acting like a kid, and he was okay with the teasing. He'd been gone for all of her life, now was the time to make memories and do good on his word. "It's a little infectious, I'll admit."
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave him a look, "That's not an answer! Come on. Tell me if I wasn't here, wouldn't you like it a tiny little bit? I mean you're ancient and you've never had a New York Chirstmas or known what its all about, do you see why people like it?" they were getting closer to Santa too
On Sun, Dec 27, 2015 at 8:20 AM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"I think it makes you happy, and that makes me happy." Her joy was infectious and no matter how ridiculous he looked, it was a moment that allowed him to grow closer to his daughter. It was just the two of them and he didn't want that to end.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
She gave the saddest look when he said no and pleaded with him to put them on until he did and then lit up again, "You look ridiculously festive." she said with a grin as she took a picture with her phone and then dragged him to a LONG line where they would wait for Santa. "So what do you think so far? Decorations are nice, aren't they? And it's kinda fun?"
On Sat, Dec 26, 2015 at 10:51 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus took a deep breath. "Those. I have to wear those? I'm not Greed, I'm not putting those on my head." Greed was a puppy, he'd do anything she'd ask. Theseus was not going to cave, and yet he e ended up with antlers on his head.
On Sunday, December 27, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Of course I'm serious! It's December, we have to take a picture with Santa. You don't have to sit on his lap. Only if you want to. And!" she stopped walking and dropped his arm to root around in her shopping bag, "I got you these!" she proudly took out a reindeer antler headband for him to wear. She jiggled it as if it would make it more appealing. "You know you want tooooooo..." she said in a sing song voice.
On Sat, Dec 26, 2015 at 9:56 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"That's miserable." Zoe was talking so fast that when he caught the end of that he just smiledwude and tilted his head. "You're serious?" Santa? The fat man in red and white.
On Saturday, December 26, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
It wasn't really the Christmas theme that had Zoe so excited, it was getting to show it to her father that had her so amped up. "They're not miserable, they're just... on a break from joy." her cheeks were pink from happiness and warmth and she said, "Yes, we are. We need to get your secretary something at least since your dad is mean and won't give anyone christmas off. Annnnnnnd..." she looked at him excitedly, "We're gonna see Santa!"
On Sat, Dec 26, 2015 at 8:38 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
It was as if Zoe had reverted to some daydream a her dad was taking her out for Christmas. The light in her eyes were that of a child, and as bizarre as parenthood was sometimes, he couldn't deny Zoe that excitement. "Everyone looks miserable except you." He wrapped her arm around his. "Are we shopping."
On Saturday, December 26, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
"Cause its shiny and sparkles are fun!" she responded and grinned when he put tinsel on her head. His boat had christmas lights too now and it was a sight since none of the other boats in the dock had excited daughters to decorate. Next thing was Zoe wanted to take him to the mall on the weekend so while Digger and Greed went shopping for a present (for her probably) she took her dad to the mall which was PACKED with people, christmas music was non-stop blaring on the speakers, and the mall looked like it'd barfed red, green, white, and silver. Everyone looked miserable with their bags but Zoe was pretty excited and kept pulling on her dad's arm to make sure he didn't get lost.
On Sat, Dec 26, 2015 at 6:48 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"It's shiny string. How does shiny string make things festive?" She was so excited though and that made him smile. When they were done throwing the tinsel around he plopped the last bit of his on her head.
On Saturday, December 26, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe picked up a pack of tinsel and held it out to him, "No, she deserved more of you." she smiled and said, "OKay so we throw this around any place where there isnt decoration. It'll make it shiny and festive."
On Sat, Dec 26, 2015 at 6:04 PM, Lauren Christensen <prettykozi@gmail.com>wrote:
He reached out to graze his diggers on the ornament. "I know. She deserved better than me." He'd taken for granted time like he always did, forgetting everyone else and leaving them behind.
On Saturday, December 26, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe finally got it done and said simply, "She missed you. She stopped celebrating birhtdays too at one point, mine and hers. She didn't want to do anything else cept miss you." but she wasnt upset about it.
On Sat, Dec 26, 2015 at 5:54 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
"She must have been sad..." Theseus said, though more to himself as he stared into a bright red metallic ball hanging from the garland on his mantle. Times when he'd actually remember the fun he had with Sophia, it made him pause to try and remember more than just tidbits. He wanted to be able to give Zoe more, but she knew more of her mother than he did.
On Saturday, December 26, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe wore jeans and a long sleeved nice shirt and was trying to hook a wreath over the main doorway of the boat but she kept jumping on tippy toe and not quite making it, "No... mom never celebrated. Thea did, when I lived with her and her boyfriend, Thea loved Christmas, she'd go all out then when I was 12 I moved back in wiht mom and she just didn't want to. I think people thought we were jewish for the longest time.."
On Sat, Dec 26, 2015 at 5:08 PM, Lauren Christensen<prettykozi@gmail.com> wrote:
Theseus had no idea how to take in all the decorations. No Greek shrine was even this decked out quite like this. Some of it was just outright tacky. He stood with his hands on his hips while she scurried around. It was sweet her enthusiasm. "Did you and Sopia decorate?" She'd mentioned she didn't get into Christmas much until Greed came into her life. But Theseus wondered if there were some things he'd missed, stories that Zoe might want to tell. He liked hearing her stories. It also might make her feel closer to her mother.
On Saturday, December 26, 2015, Lucky L. <neverluckymore@gmail.com> wrote:
Zoe kept true to her word about getting Theseus into the Christmas spirit and showing him that world. So one afternoon, they snuck out of work early and Zoe had gotten TONS of decorations for Theseus' boat. Garlands, poinsetta's, tinsel, everything but no actual christmas tree. Everything was delivered and whenever Theseus would think there were no more deliveries, there would be another one. Zoe was arranging the poinsettias on the boat and the place was transformed from the bachelor boat to a festive family style one.